Cowboys -- Fiction; Ranch life -- Fiction; Western stories
“I’ll pull myself together again, never fear,” said Gordon. “Just give
me to-night. You see that’s not all. I’ve something else to think about,
too, now that I have time. It takes a fellow’s nerve away to have
everything that is worth while drop out at once. But I’ve rallied
before. I know I’m beastly selfish not to talk to you to-night, but—”
“Dick,” interrupted Langford, bluntly, “did she turn you down?”
“I never asked her. She is going back—home—next week.”
“If you let her.”
“You don’t quite understand, Paul,” said Gordon, a little wearily. “She
said she could never live in this country—never. She would die here.
Could I ask her after that? Could I ask her anyway, and be a man? I
know. She would just pine away.”
“Girls don’t pine—only in imagination. They are tougher than you give
them credit for.”
“But somehow, Mary seems different,” said Gordon, thoughtfully. He
surprised a flush in his friend’s cheek. “You deserve her, old man,
you’ll be very happy. She is the right kind. I congratulate you with all
my heart.”
An odd lump came into Langford’s throat. Despite Gordon’s vigorous and
healthful manhood, there seemed always a certain pathos of life
surrounding him.
“I haven’t asked, either,” confessed Paul. “But you have made it
possible for me to do so—to-night—to-morrow—whenever I can find a
chance. Take my advice, old man, don’t let your girl go. You’ll find she
is the kind after all. You don’t know her yet.”
Paul left the room, and Gordon paced the narrow confines of his shabby
office—back and forth—many times. Then he threw himself once more into
his chair. The hours were long. He had all night to think about things.
When morning came, all his weakness would be over. No one should ever
again see him so unmanned as Paul had seen him to-night And when Louise
should go—his arms fell nervelessly to the table. He remained thus a
moment, his eyes fixed and unseeing, and then his head dropped heavily
upon his arms.
Alone in the night, Louise awoke. She found it impossible to fall asleep
again. She was nervous. It must be something in the atmosphere. She
tossed and tossed and flounced and flounced. She counted up to
thousands. She made her mind a blank so often that she flew to thinking
to escape the emptiness of it. Still her eyes were wide and her mind
fairly a-quiver with activity. She slipped out of bed. She would tire
herself into sleep. She even dressed. She would show herself. If she
must be a midnight prowler, she would wear the garments people affect
when they have their thoughts and energies fixed on matters mundane.
Drawing the oil stove close to the window fronting the street, she sank
into a chair, drew a heavy shawl over her shoulders, put her feet on the
tiny fender, and prepared to fatigue herself into oblivion.
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