Lavengro: The Scholar, The Gypsy, The PriestBorrow, George
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Lavengro: The Scholar, The Gypsy, The Priest
Borrow, George
England -- Fiction; Romanies -- Fiction
From this time I proceeded in a somewhat more leisurely manner; but, as I
drew nearer and nearer to the completion of my task, dreadful fears and
despondencies came over me.—It will be too late, thought I; by the time I
have finished the work, the bookseller will have been supplied with a
tale or a novel. Is it probable that, in a town like this, where talent
is so abundant—hungry talent too—a bookseller can advertise for a tale or
a novel, without being supplied with half a dozen in twenty-four hours?
I may as well fling down my pen—I am writing to no purpose. And these
thoughts came over my mind so often, that at last, in utter despair, I
flung down the pen. Whereupon the tempter within me said—‘And, now you
have flung down the pen, you may as well fling yourself out of the
window; what remains for you to do?’ Why, to take it up again, thought I
to myself, for I did not like the latter suggestion at all—and then
forthwith I resumed the pen, and wrote with greater vigour than before,
from about six o’clock in the evening until I could hardly see, when I
rested for a while, when the tempter within me again said, or appeared to
say—‘All you have been writing is stuff, it will never do—a drug—a mere
drug’; and methought these last words were uttered in the gruff tones of
the big publisher. ‘A thing merely to be sneezed at,’ a voice like that
of Taggart added; and then I seemed to hear a sternutation,—as I probably
did, for recovering from a kind of swoon, I found myself shivering with
cold. The next day I brought my work to a conclusion.
But the task of revision still remained; for an hour or two I shrank from
it, and remained gazing stupidly at the pile of paper which I had written
over. I was all but exhausted, and I dreaded, on inspecting the sheets,
to find them full of absurdities which I had paid no regard to in the
furor of composition. But the task, however trying to my nerves, must be
got over; at last, in a kind of desperation, I entered upon it. It was
far from an easy one; there were, however, fewer errors and absurdities
than I had anticipated. About twelve o’clock at night I had got over the
task of revision. ‘To-morrow for the bookseller,’ said I, as my head
sank on the pillow. ‘Oh me!’
CHAPTER FIFTY-SEVEN
NERVOUS LOOK—THE BOOKSELLER’S WIFE—THE LAST STAKE—TERMS—GOD FORBID!—WILL
YOU COME TO TEA?
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