“The thought that your presence would swell the bill at this ‘d----d
pot-house’ as he calls it, would do more to retard his cure than even
your ministrations could counteract; so stay where you are, and look
after Binning, to whom please give my love. You know that among the many
feminine graces for which you despise me, the gift of nursing is not the
least!”
Then follows a postscript: “The poor old fellow caught his chill walking
with me through yesterday’s storm, to save the expense of a cab or bus
to a jeweller’s in the City, about an enamelled girdle he is having made
for you; and which I have been helping him to design. Now that it is too
late, he is unnaturally good and obedient--a state of things I hope to
maintain by encouraging the terror under which he labours of not being
well by the 28th.”
Such was certainly not Rupert Campion’s intention in writing this
letter, yet the impression derived from it by his _fiancée_ is that
never were so many unpleasant facts and suggestions crowded into four
sides of a sheet of note-paper. Her uncle is seriously ill, and she is
not to be allowed to go to him because he is saving all his money for
her and Rupert’s younger children. He has contracted his illness in the
quest of an expensive ornament for her, which will add one more link to
the enormous chain of obligations which is tying up her liberty with
ever tighter and tighter knots. Rupert has given an added proof of his
hopelessly unmanly tastes by designing the jewel. In a dreadful flash of
prophetic insight, she sees him, in the terrible matter-of-fact freedom
of married life, sitting with his arm round her waist, and quoting
Waller--
“That which her slender waist confined
Shall now my joyful temples bind.”
He has sent his “love” with school-girl effusiveness to Binning; and,
last and worst offence, he has alluded to the 28th!
For some moments the girl stands looking vaguely out at the rhododendron
belts and azalea beds, the lawns and _parterres_, with a horrible
feeling of hatred and physical nausea towards the man with whom she is
to pass her life. Then the horror is transferred to herself, and strong
reaction follows. She thrusts the letter into her pocket, goes back to
her former seat, and picks up the book. Her action seems to forbid
question or intrusion. But in a moment or two she lays down the volume,
and makes her expiation. It does not look like one at first.
“Do not you think that complete unselfishness is the highest as well as
the rarest quality that a man can possess?”
He is so much taken aback by the triteness and apparent irrelevance of
the question, that she is able to enlarge uninterrupted upon her
dog’s-eared theme.
“I mean do not you think that it is to be set far above generosity, or
endurance, or courage, or any of that sort of showy virtues?”
“Are they showy?”
“They get a great deal more _kudos_, at any rate!” she retorts, with a
heat he does not understand. “Do not you agree with me?”
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