But at last ’Lena seemed better, and taking from the pillow the
crumpled note, she passed it toward her father, bidding him read it. It
was as follows;
“MY LOST ’LENA: By this title it seems appropriate for me to call you,
for you are more surely lost to me than you would be were this summer
sun shining upon your grave. And, ’Lena, believe me when I say I would
rather, far rather, see you dead than the guilty thing you are, for
then your memory would be to me as a holy, blessed influence, leading
me on to a better world, where I could hope to greet you as my spirit
bride. But now, alas! how dark the cloud which shrouds you from my
sight.
“Oh, ’Lena, ’Lena, how could you deceive me thus, when I thought you so
pure and innocent, when even now, I would willingly lay down my life
could that save you from ruin.
“Do you ask what I mean? I have only to refer you to what this morning
took place between you and the vile man I once called father, and whom
I believed to be the soul of truth and honor. With a heart full of
tenderness toward you, I was hastening to your side, when a scene met
my view which stilled the beatings of my pulse and curdled the very
blood in my veins, I saw you throw your arms around _his_ neck—the
husband of _my_ mother. I saw you lay your head upon his bosom. I heard
him as he called you _dearest_, and said you would never be parted
again!
“You know all that has passed heretofore, and can you wonder that my
worst fears are now confirmed? God knows how I struggled against those
doubts, which were nearly removed, when, by the evidence of my own
eyesight, uncertainty was made sure.
“And now, my once loved, but erring ’Lena, farewell. I am going
away—whither, I know not, care not, so that I never hear your name
coupled with disgrace. Another reason why I go, is that the hot blood
of the south burns too fiercely in my veins to suffer me to meet your
destroyer and not raise my hand against him. When this reaches you, I
shall be far away. But what matters it to you? And yet, ’Lena, there
will come a time when you’ll remember one who, had you remained true to
yourself, would have devoted his life to make you happy, for I know I
am not indifferent to you. I have read it in your speaking eye, and in
the childlike confidence with which you would yield to _me_ when no one
else could control your wild ravings.
“But enough of this. Time hastens, and I must say farewell—farewell
forever—my _lost, lost_ ’Lena!
“DURWARD.”
Gradually as Mr. Graham read, he felt a glow of indignation at
Durward’s hastiness. “Rash boy! he might at least have spoken with me,”
said he, as he finished the letter, but ’Lena would hear no word of
censure against him. She did not blame him. She saw it all, understood
it all, and as she recalled the contents of his letter, her own heart
sadly echoed, “_lost forever_.”
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