Married women -- Fiction; Staffordshire (England) -- Fiction
Leonora might have questioned Milly, but she perceived the futility of
doing so. It became more and more clear to her that she did not possess
the confidence of her daughters. They loved her and they admired her;
and she for her part made a point of trusting them; but their confidence
was withheld. Under the influence of Arthur Twemlow she had tried to
assuage the customary asperities of home life, so far as possible, by a
demeanour of generous quick acquiescence, and she had not entirely
failed. Yet the girls, with all the obtuseness and insensibility of
adolescence, never thought of giving her the one reward which she
desired. She sought tremulously to win their intimacy, but she sought
too late. Rose and Milly simply ignored her diffident advances, and even
Ethel was not responsive. Leonora had trained up her children as she
herself had been trained. She saw her error only when it could not be
retrieved. The dear but transient vision of four women who had no
secrets from each other, who understood each other, was finally
dissolved.
Amid the secret desolation of a life which however was not without love,
amid her vain regrets for an irrecoverable youth and her horror of the
approach of age, amid the empty lassitudes which apparently were all
that remained of the excitement caused by Arthur Twemlow's presence,
Leonora found a mournful and sweet pleasure in imagining that she had a
son. This son combined the best qualities of Harry Burgess and Fred
Ryley. She made him tall as herself, handsome as herself, and like
herself elegant. Shrewd, clever, and passably virtuous, he was
nevertheless distinctly capable of follies; but he told her everything,
even the worst, and though sometimes she frowned he smiled away the
frown. He adored her; he appreciated all the feminine in her; he
yielded to her whims; he kissed her chin and her wrist, held her
sunshade, opened doors for her, allowed her to beat him at tennis, and
deliciously frightened her by driving her very fast round corners in a
very high dog-cart. And if occasionally she said, 'I am not as young as
I was, Gerald,' he always replied: 'Oh rot, mater!'
When Ethel or Milly remarked at breakfast, as they did now and then,
that Mr. Twemlow had not fulfilled his promise of writing, Leonora would
answer evenly, 'No, I expect he's forgotten us.' And she would go and
live with her son for a little.
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