Married women -- Fiction; Staffordshire (England) -- Fiction
'I asked Twemlow to come up to-morrow night, Nora,' said John, still
elated, turning on the box-seat as the waggonette rattled briskly over
the paved crossing at the top of Oldcastle Street.
She mumbled something through her furs.
'And is he coming?' asked Rose.
'He said he'd try to.' John lighted a cigar.
'He's very queer,' said Millicent.
'How?' Rose aggressively demanded.
'Well, imagine him going off like that. He's always going off suddenly.'
Millicent stopped and then added: 'He only danced with mother. But he's
a good dancer.'
'I should think he was!' Ethel murmured, roused from lethargy. 'Isn't he
just, mother?'
Leonora mumbled again.
'Your mother's knocked up,' said John drily. 'These late nights don't
suit her. So you reckon Mr. Twemlow's a good dancer, eh?'
No one spoke further. John threw his cigar into the road.
Under the rug Leonora could feel the knees of all her daughters as they
sat huddled and limp with fatigue in the small body of the waggonette.
Her shoulders touched Ethel's, and every one of Milly's fidgety
movements communicated itself to her. Mother and children were so close
that they could not have been closer had they lain in the same grave.
And yet the girls, and John too, had no slightest suspicion how far away
the mother was from them, how blind they were, how amazingly they had
been deceived. They deemed Leonora to be like themselves, the victim of
reaction and weariness; so drowsy that even the joltings of the carriage
could not prevent a doze. She marvelled, she could not help marvelling,
that her spiritual detachment should remain unnoticed; the phenomenon
frightened her as something full of strange risks. Was it possible that
none had caught a glimpse of the intense illumination and activity of
her brain, burning and labouring there so conspicuously amid the other
brains sombre and dormant? And was it possible that the girls had
observed the qualities of Arthur's dancing and had observed nothing
else? Common sense tried to reassure her, and did not quite succeed. Her
attitude resembled that of a person who leans against a firm rail over
the edge of a precipice: there is no danger, but the precipice is so
deep that he fears; and though the fear is a torture the sinister
magnetism of the abyss forbids him to withdraw. She lived again in the
waltz; in the gliding motions of it, the delicious fluctuations of the
reverse, the long trance-like union, the instinctive avoidances of other
contact. She whispered the music, endlessly repeating those poignant and
voluptuous phrases which linger in the memory of all the world. And she
recalled and reconstituted Arthur's physical presence, and the emanating
charm of his disposition, and dwelt on them long and long. Instead of
lessening, the secret commotion within her increased and continued to
increase. While brooding with feverish joy over the immediate past, her
mind reached forward and existed in the appalling and fatal moment, for
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