I shall have a little trouble in procuring the Money and a great ordeal to go through--no trouble indeed to any one else--or ordeal either. I mean I shall have to go to town some thrice, and stand in the Bank an hour or two--to me worse than anything in Dante--I should have less chance with the people around me than Orpheus had with the Stones. I have been writing a little now and then lately: but nothing to speak of--being discontented and as it were moulting. Yet I do not think I shall ever come to the rope or the Pistol, for after a day or two's melancholy, although I smoke more and more my own insufficiency--I see by little and little more of what is to be done, and how it is to be done, should I ever be able to do it. On my soul, there should be some reward for that continual _agonie ennuyeuse_. I was thinking of going into Hampshire for a few days. I have been delaying it longer than I intended. You shall see me soon; and do not be at all anxious, for _this_ time I really will do, what I never did before in my life, business in good time, and properly.--With respect to the Bond--it may be a satisfaction to you to let me have it: but as you love me do not let there be any mention of interest, although we are mortal men--and bind ourselves for fear of death. Yours for ever JOHN KEATS. LXXXIX.--TO BENJAMIN ROBERT HAYDON. Wentworth Place, [January 1819]. My dear Haydon--My throat has not suffered me yet to expose myself to the night air: however I have been to town in the day time--have had several interviews with my guardian--have written him rather a plain-spoken Letter--which has had its effect; and he now seems inclined to put no stumbling-block in my way: so that I see a good prospect of performing my promise. What I should have lent you ere this if I could have got it, was belonging to poor Tom--and the difficulty is whether I am to inherit it before my Sister is of age; a period of six years. Should it be so I must incontinently take to Corduroy Trousers. But I am nearly confident 'tis all a Bam. I shall see you soon--but do let me have a line to-day or to-morrow concerning your health and spirits. Your sincere friend JOHN KEATS. XC.--TO FANNY KEATS. Wentworth Place, [January 1819]. My dear Fanny--I send this to Walthamstow for fear you should not be at Pancras Lane when I call to-morrow--before going into Hampshire for a few days--I will not be more I assure you--You may think how disappointed I am in not being able to see you more and spend more time with you than I do--but how can it be helped? The thought is a continual vexation to me--and often hinders me from reading and composing--Write to me as often as you can--and believe me, Your affectionate Brother JOHN ----. XCI.--TO FANNY KEATS. Wentworth Place, Feb{y.} [11, 1819]. Thursday.