You must love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your mind: you must trust Him to do the best by you. You say the Hebrew ideal does not appeal to you. But I know better; for you half like me, and I am a Hebrew of the Hebrews! There must be a dash of recklessness about the man who gains the other world. 'All or nothing' is the requirement of the kingdom of Heaven. To gain yourself you must throw yourself away--'lose your soul.' You must have faith. 'He who loves makes his own the grandeur that he loves' is a sentence of Emerson which consoles me when I think of my love for you. _To a friend at Cambridge._ 40 Upperton Gardens, Eastbourne: September 8, 1902. I have been thinking of you. I keep myself from becoming morbid by making most of my thoughts into prayers for you. The glory--wonder--strangeness of being loved by a man from another and a better world fills me with gratitude to God. Sometimes it seems a dream, and I half dread that I shall wake up and find that you have ceased to care for a worthless creature. But _phobos ouk estin en te agape, all he teleia agape exo ballei ton phobon_. I need not fear. I know that you will love me, whatever happens. [Transcriber's note: The Greek phrases in the above paragraph were transliterated as follows: _phobos_--phi, omicron, beta, omicron, final sigma; _ouk_--omicron, upsilon, kappa; _estin_--epsilon, sigma, tau, iota, nu; _en_--epsilon, nu; _te_--tau, eta; _agape_--alpha, gamma, alpha, pi, eta; _all_--alpha, lambda, lambda; _he_--(rough breathing mark) eta; _teleia_--tau, epsilon, lambda, epsilon, iota, alpha; _agape_--alpha, gamma, alpha, pi, eta; _exo_--epsilon, xi, omega; _ballei_--beta, alpha, lambda, lambda, epsilon, iota; _ton_--tau, omicron, nu; _phobon_--phi, omicron, beta, omicron, nu]