Life in the sick-room : $b EssaysMartineau, Harriet
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Life in the sick-room : $b Essays
Martineau, Harriet
Conduct of life; Sick
There are other liabilities which may be clear to observers, or easily
conceivable when mentioned. I hardly know whether we may allude, under
the head of Tempers, to the despair which I believe to be universally
felt (however discountenanced), by all, on the assault of very severe
pain. The reason may speak, and even through the lips, of hope and
courage; but the _sensation_ of which I speak is peculiar, so
peculiarly connected with bodily agony, that I cannot but believe it
felt wherever bodily agony is felt. It has nothing to do with the
courage of the soul; affords not the shadow of contradiction to
patience, fortitude, religious trust. I mean simply that when extreme
pain seizes on us, down go our spirits, fathoms deep; and, though the
soul may yet be submissive and even willing, the sickening question
rises,--“How _shall_ I bear this for five minutes? What _will_ become of
me?” And if the imagination stretches on to an hour, or hours, there is
no word but _despair_ which expresses the feeling. The by-standers can
never fully understand this suffering; no, though they may themselves
have suffered to extremity. The patient himself, in any interval, when
devoutly ready to endure again, cannot understand, nor believe in his
late emotion, or fancy that he can feel it again. As it is thus peculiar
and transient, there could be no use in mentioning it, except for two
possibilities; that some sufferer may, in the moment of anguish,
remember that the sensation has been recognised and recorded; and that
attendants, on witnessing a sudden abasement of high courage, on seeing
horror of countenance succeed a calm determination, may remember, at the
right moment, that there is that passing within of which they can have
no conception, and certainly no right to judge.
I might add, as a justification for allusion to so painful a subject,
that it may teach us to honour, in some less faint degree, the strength
of soul of those who, with any composure, die of sheer pain,--of the
most torturing diseases. If, amidst successive shocks of this despairing
sensation, their power of reaction, in the intervals, remains
unimpaired, and they retain their spiritual dignities to the end, no
degree of admiration can transcend their claims.
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