All men are children of the Son of Man, but no one could call Him father
in the flesh. Among the disappointing joys of men perhaps the only joy
which does not disappoint is to hold in one’s arms or on one’s knees a
child whose face is rosy with blood which is also yours, who laughs at
you with the dawning splendor of his eyes, who stammers out your name,
who uncovers the springs of the lost tenderness of your childhood; to
feel against your adult flesh, hardened by winds and the sun, this fresh
smooth young flesh where the blood seems still to have kept some of the
sweetness of milk, flesh that seems made of warm, living petals. To feel
that this flesh is yours, shaped in the flesh of your mate, nourished
with the milk of her breasts; to watch the birth and slow flowering of
the soul in this flesh; to be the sole father of this unique creature,
of this flower opening in the light of the world; to recognize your own
aspect in his childish eyes, to hear your own voice through his fresh
lips; to grow young again through this child in order to be worthy of
him; to be nearer to him; to make yourself younger, better, purer; to
forget all the years which bring us silently nearer to death, to forget
the pride of manhood, the vanity of wisdom, the first wrinkles on the
face, the expiations, the ignominies of life and to become a virgin
again beside this virginity, calm beside this calmness, good with a
goodness never known before; to be in short the father of a child of
your own, this is certainly the highest human pleasure given to a man
who has a soul within his clay.
Jesus, whom no one called Father, was drawn to children as to sinners.
Lover of the absolute, He loved only extremes. Complete innocence and
complete downfall were for Him pledges of salvation. Innocence because
it does not need to be cleansed; abject degradation because it feels
more keenly the need to be cleansed. The people in danger are those
midway; men half depraved and half intact; men who are foul within and
wish to seem upright and just; those who have lost with their childhood
their native purity and do not yet recognize the filthiness of their
inner depravity.
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