Life of Father Ignatius of St. Paul, Passionist (The Hon. & Rev. George Spencer).Pius a Sp. Sancto (Pius a Spiritu Sancto)
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Life of Father Ignatius of St. Paul, Passionist (The Hon. & Rev. George Spencer).
Pius a Sp. Sancto (Pius a Spiritu Sancto)
Passionists; Spencer, George, 1799-1864
"I was at this time living at Althorp, my father's principal
residence in the country, serving as a curate to the parish to which
it was attached, though the park itself is extra-parochial. Among
the visitors who resorted there, was one of the most distinguished
scholars of the day, to whom, as to many more of the Anglican
Church, I owe a debt of gratitude for the interest which he took in
me, and to the help I actually received from him in the course of
inquiry, which has happily terminated in the haven of the true
Church. I should like to make a grateful and honourable mention of
his name, but as this has been found fault with, I forbear. I was
one day explaining to him with earnestness the line of argument
which I was pursuing with dissenters, and my hopes from it; I
suppose I expected encouragement, such as I had received from many
others. But he simply and candidly said, 'These would be {115} very
convenient doctrines, if we could make use of them, but they are
available only for Roman Catholics; they will not serve us.' I saw
in a moment the truth of his remark, and his character and position
gave it additional weight. I did not answer him; but as a soldier
who has received what he feels to be a mortal wound, will suddenly
stand still, and then quietly retire out of the _mêlée_, and seek a
quiet spot to die in, so I went away with my High Churchism mortally
wounded in the very prime of its vigour and youth, to die for ever
to the character of an Anglican High Churchman. Why did not this
open my eyes, you will say, to the truth of Catholicity? I answer,
simply because my early prejudices were too strong. The unanswerable
remark of my friend was like a _reductio ad absurdum_ of all High
Church ideas. If they were true, the Catholic would be so: _which is
absurd_, as I remember Euclid would say. 'Therefore,' &c. The grand
support of the High Church system, church authority, having been
thus overthrown, it was an easy though gradual work to get out of my
mind all its minor details and accompaniments, one after another;
such as regard for holy places, for holy days, for consecrated
persons, for ecclesiastical writers; finally, almost all definite
dogmatic notions. It would seem that all was slipping away, when,
coming to the conviction of the truth of Catholicity some years
after, it was with extraordinary delight I found myself picking up
again the shattered dispersed pieces of the beautiful fabric, and
placing them now in better order on the right foundation, solid and
firm, no longer exposed to such a catastrophe as had upset my
card-castle of Anglican churchmanship. This little passage in my
ancient religious history is so sweetly interesting to me in the
remembrance, that I have looked into an old diary which I used to
keep at the time, to make out the dates, and I find by this that the
duration of my High Church ideas was shorter than I should have
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