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And he was oddly comforted by the honesty in her which could not stoop
to dishonest comforting. In what superficially might seem her failure
there was a very real victory for them both. And there was nothing of
coldness in her reserve! There was the fulness of understanding, and of
valuing the moments too highly for anything there was to be said about
it. There was a great spiritual dignity, a nobility, in the way she was
looking at him. It called upon the whole of his own spiritual dignity.
It was her old demand upon him, but this time the tears through which
her eyes shone were tears of pride in fulfilment, not of sorrowing for
failure.
Suddenly he felt that his life had not been spent in vain, that the
lives of all those men of his day who had fought the good fight for
intellectual honesty--spiritual dignity--had not been spent in vain
if they were leaving upon the earth even a few who were like the girl
beside them.
It turned him from himself to her. She was what counted--for she was
what remained. And he remained in just the measure that he remained
through her; counted in so far as he counted for her. It was as if he
had been facing in the wrong direction and now a kindly hand had turned
him around. It was not in looking back there he would find himself. He
was not back there to be found. Only so much of him lived as had been
able to wing itself ahead--on in the direction she was moving.
It did not particularly surprise him that when she at last spoke it was
to voice a shade of that same feeling. “I was thinking,” she began, “of
that younger man. Of what he must mean to the man who gives way to him.”
She was feeling her way as she went--groping among the many dim things
that were there. He had always liked to watch her face when she was
thinking her way step by step.
“I think you used a word wrongly a minute ago,” she said, with a smile.
“You spoke of being replaced. But that isn't it. A man like you isn't
replaced; he's”--she got it after a minute and came forth with it
triumphantly--“fulfilled!”
Her face was shining as she turned to him after that. “Don't you see?
He's there waiting to take your place because you got him ready. Why,
you made that younger man! Your whole life has been a getting ready for
him. He can do his work be cause you first did yours. Of course he can
go farther than you can! Wouldn't it be a sorry commentary on you if he
couldn't?”
Her voice throbbed warmly upon that last, and during the pause the light
it had brought still played upon her face. “We were talking in class
about immortality,” she went on, more slowly. “There's one form of
immortality I like to think about. It's that all those who from the very
first have given anything to the world are living in the world to-day.”
There was a rush of tears to her eyes and of affection to her voice
as she finished, very low: “You'll never die. You've deepened the
consciousness of life too much for that.”
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