United States -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction
“I'm of the second generation, dad,” the boy went on, at length,
“and the second generation has an ideal of its own, and that ideal is
Success. It took us these forty years to come to understand the spirit
of America. You were a dreamer who loved America. I'm an American. We've
translated democracy and brotherhood and equality into enterprise and
opportunity and success--and that's getting Americanised. Now, father,”
he sought refuge in the tone of every-day things, “you'll get used to
it--won't you? I don't expect you to feel very good about it, but you
aren't going to be broken up about it--are you? After all, father,”
laughing and moving about as if to break the seriousness of things,
“there's nothing criminal about being one of the other fellows--is
there? Just remember that there _are_ folks who even think it's
respectable!” The father had risen and picked up his hat. “No, Fred,” he
said, with a sadness in which there was great dignity, “there is nothing
criminal in it if a man's conviction sends him that way. But to me there
is something--something too sad for words in a man's selling his own
soul.”
“Father! How extravagant! _Why_ is it selling one's soul to sit down
and figure out what's the best thing to do?” He hesitated, hating to
add hurt to hurt, not wanting to say that his father's fight should have
been with the revolutionists, that his life was ineffective because,
seeing his dream from within a dream, his thinking had been muddled. He
only said: “As I say, father, it's a question of giving or getting. I
couldn't even give in your way. And I've seen enough of giving to want
a taste of getting. I want to make things go--and I see my chance. Why
father,” he laughed, trying to turn it, “there's nothing so American as
wanting to make things _go_.”
He looked at him for a long minute. “My boy,” he said, “I fear you are
becoming so American that I am losing you.”
“Father,” the boy pleaded, affectionately, “now don't--”
The old man held up his hand. “You've tried to make me understand it,”
he said, “and succeeded. You can't complain of the way you've succeeded.
I don't know why I don't argue with you--plead; there are things I could
say--should say, perhaps--but something assures me it would be useless.
I feel a good many years older than I did when I came into this room,
but the reason for it is not that you're joining the other party. You
know what I think of the men who control this State, the men with whom
you desire to cast your lot, but I trust the years I've spent fighting
them haven't made a bigot of me. It's not joining their party--it's
_using_ it--makes this the hardest thing I've been called upon to meet.”
“Father, don't look like that! How do you think I am going to get up and
speak tonight with _that_ face before me?”
“You didn't think, did you,” the man laughed bitterly, “that I would
inspire you to your effort?”
The boy stood looking at his father, a strange new fire in his eyes.
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