French fiction -- 20th century; World War, 1914-1918 -- Fiction
He rambles more loudly now, as if he bore a stifling secret; he calls
up multitudes, and still more multitudes. He is obsessed by
multitudes--"Men, men!" he says. The soil is caressed by some sounds
of sighs, terribly soft, by confidences which are interchanged without
their wishing it. Now and again, the sky collapses into light, and
that flash of instantaneous sunshine changes the shape of the plain
every time, according to its direction. Then does the night take all
back again athwart the rolling echoes.
"Men! Men!"
"What about them, then?" says a sudden jeering voice which falls like a
stone.
"Men _must_ not awake," the shining shadow goes on, in dull and hollow
tones.
"Don't worry!" says the ironical voice, and at that moment it terrifies
me.
Several bodies arise on their fists into the darkness--I see them by
their heavy groans--and look around them.
The shadow talks to himself and repeats his insane words:--
"Men _must_ not awake."
The voice opposite me, capsizing in laughter and swollen with a rattle,
says again:--
"Don't worry!"
Yonder, in the hemisphere of night, comets glide, blending their cries
of engines and owls with their flaming entrails. Will the sky ever
recover the huge peace of the sun and the stainless blue?
A little order, a little lucidity are coming back into my mind. Then I
begin to think about myself.
Am I going to die, yes or no? Where can I be wounded? I have managed
to look at my hands, one by one; they are not dead, and I saw nothing
in their dark trickling. It is extraordinary to be made motionless
like this, without knowing where or how. I can do no more on earth
than lift my eyes a little to the edge of the world where I have
rolled.
Suddenly I am pushed by a movement of the horse on which I am lying. I
see that he has turned his great head aside; he is mournfully eating
grass. I saw this horse but lately in the middle of the regiment--I
know him by the white in his mane--rearing and whinnying like the true
battle-chargers; and now, broken somewhere, he is silent as the truly
unhappy are. Once again, I recall the red deer's little one, mutilated
on its carpet of fresh crimson, and the emotion which I had not on that
bygone day rises into my throat. Animals are innocence incarnate.
This horse is like an enormous child, and if one wanted to point out
life's innocence face to face, one would have to typify, not a little
child, but a horse. My neck gives way, I utter a groan, and my face
gropes upon the ground.
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