She laid her hand on his arm, as if to draw him to herself in some
natural symbolism. Her face was flushed with her womanly modesty. She
hid it once more like a shy child on his shoulder. Will looked at her,
sore puzzled. How strange that this pure and passionate nature should
see things in a light that to him was so unfamiliar! But he remembered
what she had said to him in Philippina’s trouble, and began to
understand now in what manner she regarded it.
“Well, but, Linnet,” he cried eagerly lifting her head from where she
put it, and laying her cheek against his own, “you must see for yourself
how much better it would be, if only from the mere worldly point of
view, to arrange this matter as the world would arrange it. Granting
even that a marriage after an English divorce would mean to you, from
the strictly religious standpoint, simply nothing—why, surely, even
then, it must be no small matter to set oneself right with the world, to
be received and acknowledged as an honest woman, and my wife, in
ordinary English society. If we get a divorce, we can do all that; and
to get a divorce, we must act now circumspectly. But if we don’t get
one, and if you try to stop here with me without it—remember, dear, the
penalty; you lose position at once, and become for society an utter
outcast.”
Linnet flung herself upon him once more in a perfect fervour of
abandonment. Her love and her shame were fighting hard within her. Her
passionate Southern nature overcame her entirely. “Will, Will, dear
Will,” she cried, hiding her face from him yet again, “you don’t
understand; you can’t fathom the depth of the sacrifice I would make for
you. I come to you to-day bringing my life in my hand—my eternal life,
my soul, my future; I offer you all I have, all I am, all I will be. For
you I give up my good name, my faith, my hopes of salvation. For you I
will endure the worst tortures of purgatory. I’ve tried to keep
away—I’ve tried hard to keep away—Our Dear Lady knows how hard—all
these months, all these years—but I can keep away no longer. Two great
powers seemed to pull different ways within me. My Church said to me
plainly, ‘You must never think of him; you must stop with Andreas.’ My
heart said to me no less plainly, but a thousand times more
persuasively, ‘You must fly from that man’s side; you must go to Will
Deverill.’ I knew, if I followed my heart, the fires of hell would rise
up and take hold of me. I haven’t minded for that; I’ve dared the fires
of hell; the two have fought it out—the Church and my heart—and, my
heart has conquered.”
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