Only Nature itself remained to console her. And Andreas in his wisdom
allowed her to commune much with Nature. The eternal hills had still
some slight balm for her wounded spirit. Linnet and her husband stopped
as guests at the _Wirthshaus_; it was Andreas’s still, but he had let it
to Cousin Fridolin. In the morning, after Linnet had gulped down the
coffee and roll that seemed to half choke her, she would stroll up the
hill behind the village inn, and sit on the boulders, just above the
belt of pine wood, where she had sat long ago hand in hand with Will
Deverill. The village children sometimes came and gazed at her, and
whispered to one another in an awestruck undertone how this was Lina
Telser, who once minded cows in a châlet on the Alps, and who was now
the Casalmonte, a great, rich singer in England, with diamonds in her
box, and grand rings on her fingers. Linnet dressed very simply for this
mountain life, and tried to seem the same as of yore to Cousin Fridolin,
and the priest, and the good old neighbours: but, ah me, how changed was
the world of the Tyrol! And how curious it seemed to hear the same
familiar chatter still running on about the same old gossips, the same
petty jealousies, the same narrow hopes, and fears, and ideals, when she
herself had passed through so much, meanwhile—had known other men, new
ideas, strange cities!
So for a fortnight, Linnet lived on, scarcely speaking to Andreas, but
sitting by herself on those springtide hills, where the globe-flowers
scattered gold with a stintless hand and the orchids empurpled whole
wide tracts of the meadows. She sat there—and thought of Will—and
obeyed the Church—and followed Andreas. Yet, oh, how strange that God
and our hearts should be thus at open war! that Nature should tell us
one thing and the Church another! ’Twas a consequence of the Fall of
Man, the Herr Vicar assured her; for the heart, the heart is deceitful
above all things, and desperately wicked. And it was desperately wicked
of her, no doubt, to think so much about Will; but there—Church or no
Church, Linnet couldn’t help thinking of him.
She was resigned, in a way; very much resigned; her heart had been
crushed once for all when she married Andreas. It had flared up in a
fitful flicker of open rebellion when she left his house and flung
herself fiercely on Will Deverill’s bosom; and then—Will himself had
bruised the broken reed, had quenched the smoking flax, and sent her
away hurt, bleeding, and humiliated. He did it for her own sake, she
knew, but, oh, she would have loved him better if he’d been a little
less thoughtful for her, less noble, less generous! Loved him better? Oh
no; to love him better would be impossible! But they would both have
been happier, with the world well lost, and present love for the reward
of Paradise closed to them hereafter.
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