English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
The face which had been still in its sorrow, was suddenly convulsed; he
opened his eyes, and through the tears they were bright with a violent
anger. “I shall kill her,” he said, “I shall kill her. When I think of
him throwing himself out, falling through the air....” With his two
hands he made a violent gesture, bringing them down from over his head
and arresting them with a sudden jerk when they were on a level with
his breast. “And then crash.” He shuddered. “She’s as much responsible
as though she had pushed him down herself. I shall kill her.” He
clenched his teeth.
To be angry is easier than to be sad, less painful. It is comforting to
think of revenge. “Don’t talk like that,” I said. “It’s no good. It’s
stupid. And what would be the point?” He had had those fits before,
when grief became too painful and he had tried to escape from it. Anger
had been the easiest way of escape. I had had, before this, to persuade
him back into the harder path of grief. “It’s stupid to talk like
that,” I repeated, and I led him away through the ghastly labyrinth of
tombs, where death seemed more terrible even than it is.
By the time we had left the cemetery, and were walking down from San
Miniato towards the Piazzale Michelangelo below, he had become calmer.
His anger had subsided again into the sorrow from which it had derived
all its strength and its bitterness. In the Piazzale we halted for
a moment to look down at the city in the valley below us. It was a
day of floating clouds--great shapes, white, golden, and grey; and
between them patches of a thin, transparent blue. Its lantern level,
almost, with our eyes, the dome of the cathedral revealed itself in
all its grandiose lightness, its vastness and aerial strength. On the
innumerable brown and rosy roofs of the city the afternoon sunlight
lay softly, sumptuously, and the towers were as though varnished and
enamelled with an old gold. I thought of all the Men who had lived here
and left the visible traces of their spirit and conceived extraordinary
things. I thought of the dead child.
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