English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
Relieved, partly by my Uncle Spencer’s spiritual ministrations, partly
by the medicating power of time, from her first access of remorse,
depression, and self-reproach, Emmy began to recover her normal high
spirits. My Uncle Spencer became less necessary to her as a comforter.
His incomprehensible speculations began to bore her. Conversely, the
jokes of the cheerful ones seemed more funny, while the gallantries of
the journalist and the bank clerk appeared less repulsive, because--now
that her mood had changed--they struck her as less incongruous and
indecorous. She was no longer, spiritually speaking, in church. In
church, my Uncle Spencer’s undemonstrative and unimportunate devotion
had seemed beautifully in place. But now that she was emerging again
out of the dim religious into the brightly secular mood, she found it
rather ridiculous and, since she did not return the adoration, tiresome.
“If you could just see yourself now, Uncle Spenny,” she said to him,
“the way you look.”
And she drew down the corners of her mouth, then opened her eyes in a
fishy, reverential stare. Then the grimace in which my Uncle Spencer
was supposed to see his adoration truly mirrored, disintegrated in
laughter; the eyes screwed themselves up, a little horizontal wrinkle
appeared near the tip of the snub nose, the mouth opened, waves of
mirth seemed to ripple out from it across the face, and a shrill peal
of laughter mocked him into an attempted smile.
“Do I really look like that?” he asked.
“You really do,” Emmy nodded. “Not a very cheerful thing to have
staring at one day and night, is it?”
Sometimes--and this to my Uncle Spencer was inexpressibly painful--she
would even bring in some third person to share the sport at his
expense; she would associate the bank clerk, the opera singer, or the
journalist in her mocking laughter. The teasing which, in the first
days, had been so light and affectionate, became cruel.
Emmy would have been distressed, no doubt, if she had known how much
she hurt him. But he did not complain. All she knew was that my Uncle
Spencer was ridiculous. The temptation to say something smart and
disagreeable about him was irresistible.
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