England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"I have been obliged to request your friend Rothsay to bring his visit
to a conclusion. Although he refuses to confess it, I have reason to
believe that he has committed the folly of falling seriously in love
with the young girl at my lodge gate. I have tried remonstrance in vain;
and I write to his father at the same time that I write to you. There
is much more that I might say. I reserve it for the time when I hope to
have the pleasure of seeing you, restored to health."
Two days after the receipt of this alarming letter Rothsay returned to
me.
Ill as I was, I forgot my sufferings the moment I looked at him. Wild
and haggard, he stared at me with bloodshot eyes like a man demented.
"Do you think I am mad? I dare say I am. I can't live without her."
Those were the first words he said when we shook hands.
But I had more influence over him than any other person; and, weak as I
was, I exerted it. Little by little, he became more reasonable; he began
to speak like his old self again.
To have expressed any surprise, on my part, at what had happened, would
have been not only imprudent, but unworthy of him and of me. My first
inquiry was suggested by the fear that he might have been hurried into
openly confessing his passion to Susan--although his position forbade
him to offer marriage. I had done him an injustice. His honorable nature
had shrunk from the cruelty of raising hopes, which, for all he knew
to the contrary, might never be realized. At the same time, he had his
reasons for believing that he was at least personally acceptable to her.
"She was always glad to see me," said poor Rothsay. "We constantly
talked of you. She spoke of your kindness so prettily and so gratefully.
Oh, Lepel, it is not her beauty only that has won my heart! Her nature
is the nature of an angel."
His voice failed him. For the first time in my remembrance of our long
companionship, he burst into tears.
I was so shocked and distressed that I had the greatest difficulty in
preserving my own self-control. In the effort to comfort him, I asked if
he had ventured to confide in his father.
"You are the favorite son," I reminded him. "Is there no gleam of hope
in the future?"
He had written to his father. In silence he gave me the letter in reply.
It was expressed with a moderation which I had hardly dared to expect.
Mr. Rothsay the elder admitted that he had himself married for love, and
that his wife's rank in the social scale (although higher than Susan's)
had not been equal to his own.
"In such a family as ours," he wrote--perhaps with pardonable pride--"we
raise our wives to our own degree. But this young person labors under a
double disadvantage. She is obscure, and she is poor. What have you to
offer her? Nothing. And what have I to give you? Nothing."
This meant, as I interpreted it, that the main obstacle in the way was
Susan's poverty. And I was rich! In the excitement that possessed me, I
followed the impulse of the moment headlong, like a child.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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