The Home Secretary had never spoken of Sir Bernard Vanbrugh’s refusal.
His repulse had mortified him deeply, but he took it sedately as he
took most other things. He blamed himself for not having made sure of
Hero in the first place, and with a certain obstinacy he still clung to
the idea that she would sooner or later be his.
Sir Bernard had been equally silent on his side. He did not know which
way his daughter’s inclination went, and wanted to avoid a disagreement.
The Duchess, whose diplomacy was of the simplest order, went on to say
to Alistair:
“Don’t you think you would like to come abroad for a little time? The
Vanbrughs have a house at Dinard, and it would be very pleasant if you
would take me over there.”
Alistair gazed at his mother in doubt. He could hardly misunderstand
her drift, and the light in his eyes was a sufficient revelation to her
of his own wishes. But the gossip which had reached him concerning his
brother and Hero Vanbrugh held him back.
“What about Trent?” he said.
“He can’t leave town till Parliament rises, of course. He may join us
afterwards, perhaps.”
Alistair was puzzled by his mother’s indifferent tone.
“Will he like me to be there in his absence?” he asked.
The Duchess was equally puzzled.
“Why, what difference does it make to him?” she returned.
“Isn’t there something? I thought--I heard that he and Miss
Vanbrugh----”
The Duchess looked at him in surprise.
“Oh, no!” she declared with confidence. “There has never been any idea
of that kind. He likes her very much as a friend, but he would not
think of anything more. I know exactly what his views are; he has often
told me. He means to marry a great fortune. Hero will have money, no
doubt,” she was quick to add. “Her father is rich for a professional
man, I believe. But, of course, he could not give her enough for
Trent.”
Alistair received the assurance with a throb of delight, as his
mother’s project suddenly shone out to him in the bright light of
hope. But a misgiving of another kind assailed him, and one which he
found it more difficult to explain to her. He found himself ashamed
to pass straight from the side of Molly Finucane to such a girl as
Hero Vanbrugh. It would be almost an insult, he thought; it would be
acting as though he sought Hero, not for her own sake, but as a sort of
refuge, a substitute for the woman he had left.
The sense of shame which Hero alone had been able to rouse in him
returned in its full force at the idea of presenting himself before her
with all the stains of his past life still showing, with Molly’s kisses
fresh upon his lips. He felt a desire to go away first and purge his
life in other scenes, to renew himself in some atmosphere of sweet and
strong endeavour from which he could hope to emerge fitter for Hero’s
love.
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