The Duchess was afraid to carry her soundings further. For the first
time it dawned upon her that Sir Bernard was capable of taking a
critical view of such a son-in-law.
She had conveyed the physician’s judgment to Alistair, and Alistair
had rejoiced her by a promise of amendment which had so far been kept.
To help him, the Duchess had insisted on sacrificing her own glass of
wine, and as both the Vanbrughs were water-drinkers, all intoxicants
had silently disappeared from the tables of both households.
Alistair was touched by his mother’s self-denial on his behalf, and
cheered by Hero’s delicate sympathy. In the first flush of his new
resolution, amid the distractions of his changed life, and buoyed up by
the inspiration of his love, the path of reformation was made smooth
for him. The gloomy feelings that had haunted him in London returned
into the remote recesses of consciousness. The bright constellation of
Ormuzd rose beckoning before him, and the dark Sign of the Suffering
One sank below the horizon of life.
The only reminders he had of the past were the letters that reached him
from Molly Finucane.
At first the letters had come every day, passionate, reproachful,
entreating him to return to her. Molly protested that she had seen
no more of Mendes; that she was selling everything in the house
at Chelsea; that they would still have enough to go on with till
Alistair’s allowance from his brother became due; that she would follow
him and live with him where and how he would. When Alistair wrote back
what he intended for a final farewell, and sent a banknote given him by
his mother, Molly returned the note torn into a dozen pieces. Then the
letters became fewer and more pleading and pitiful. At last there came
one telling him that Molly had taken refuge with her brother, whose
address she gave him, in some Lambeth slum. After that there were no
more letters. The little woman had sunk in despair.
Alistair tried hard to forget Molly Finucane, and for a time it seemed
to him that he had succeeded. His love, if the passion she had aroused
in him deserved that name, had died out of itself, his compassion had
been put to sleep by the influences brought to bear upon him. If these
good women, if one so filled with the spirit of Christian charity
as his mother, could see nothing blameworthy in his desertion of
Molly--indeed, nothing that was not wholly praiseworthy--surely it was
absurd for him, the prodigal and the bankrupt, the unbeliever and the
misanthrope, to let himself be tormented by misgivings. To ruin what
was left of his own life for the sake of one whom no human sacrifice
could redeem--surely this were madness rather than heroism.
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