"No," he answered with a sneer; "I'm not going to drive bullocks, or dry-nurse a flock of sheep, for any man. I must live in some other manner--whether it be considered respectable or not." "What can you do?" I inquired. "Haven't an idea. I only know, Stone, that I shall be `spongeing' on you, if you don't cut my acquaintance." "And, when you can live on your acquaintance no longer, what then?" "Then I must turn billiard-marker. My friends have sent me here, as they said, to make my fortune, but, as I believe, only to get rid of any further trouble with me at home. They have succeeded in their purpose: for I don't believe that I shall ever rise the `tin' to return to England, although I should deucedly like to do so." "Why should you wish to go where you are not wanted? Why not set to work; and become independent, by your own exertions?" "Ah! my friend, you forget that we have not been brought up alike. You have had sensible parents, or guardians, who have done something to prepare you for that sort of thing, while I have been brought up foolishly by those who have tried hard to make me believe myself wiser than other people. What seems easy to you, is altogether impossible to me. You have been educated in a world that has taught you some wisdom, while I have been trained by a family that has only made a fool of me. I have been taught to believe that a man should owe everything to his ancestors; and you, that he should be indebted only to himself. Therefore, it's idle to talk about the matter--we can never agree." I saw that there was no use in urging Cannon to attempt doing any thing in the colonies, as long as he could perceive no object to be gained by exerting himself. Just then, I was myself slightly inclined to take a similar view of things. I had hoped and toiled to make myself as perfect, as was possible for a human being, placed in my circumstances. What had I gained by it? Nothing. What could I expect to gain? Nothing. Influenced by these thoughts, I remained for some time in doubt, whether I should return to the diggings or not. Life there, was, after all, only an excitement. It was not happiness. Several times the temptation came strong upon me, to go back to Jessie; and see if I could find happiness with her. In striving to overcome this temptation, I was, perhaps, acting not so unlike my companions-- Vane and Cannon: I was refusing to accept of fortune's favours, when they could so easily have been won. They were in a growing colony, where, with labour, they might easily have obtained a high position--yet they would not exert themselves. I was playing a very similar part; for I saw how I might become happy--at all events, how I might live without unhappiness--yet I rejected the opportunity fortune had thus set before me. I would only consent to accept happiness on my own terms; and my obstinacy was not so very different from that which was the besetting sin of my companions.