The door was open between their cabins, but Bellair was not called.
Once he heard the child cry, but it was quickly hushed.... He
thought it must be near morning at last, and went on deck. He was not
suffering, except from lassitude, deep languor and numbing strangeness
that Fleury was not near him--that the woman was not sitting in her
place forward.... It was just after midnight, the moon still high,
the weather the same. ... He was not seen. Three men were seated
smoking in the lee of one of the engine-room funnels, the light from
the dining-saloon on their knees. The Doctor joined them, and said
presently:
“... It’s a bit deep for me. They’ve been in an open boat ten days. Old
Stackhouse, well-known down here, died of thirst the fourth or fifth
day, but these two and the infant have lived through it. The preacher
looked all right, but seems to have suffered a fatal case of happiness
since we lifted him aboard. The two knew it was coming apparently, and
arranged for me to be absent.... It appears that they made a sort of
pilgrimage to Mecca out of thirst and starvation, and got away with
it----”
Bellair withdrew softly.
In the long next forenoon when he could not rise, he wished he had gone
into that open door, when he was on his feet last night. Sometimes
half-dreamily he wished he were back in the open boat, because she
was always there. Something had taken establishment in his character
from that ten days. She had never failed--in light or dark, in the
twilights of dawn and evening, in moon and star and sunlight--always
there; disclosing leisurely some new aspect of beauty for him. He
understood now that one does not begin to see clearly any object until
one is attracted to it--that all the cursory _looking at things_ around
the world will not bring them home to the full comprehension.
... He could call to her, but it was like telephoning. He had never
liked that, and beside he was not the master of his voice. It would
not go straight, but lingered in corners, broke pitifully--so that he
knew it frightened her--and the meanings in his mind which he could not
speak, pressed the tears out of his eyes.... Then there was pain. His
body astonished him. He had merely been weak and undone last night, but
to-day.... And he knew that she was suffering, not from any sound from
her cabin, but because she did not come. Then _they_ had to feed the
child. This filled him with a rebellion so sharp that it recalled him
to full faculties for a second. He had to smile at his absurdity.
The second day it was the same, but the third Bellair arose; and when
she heard his step, her call came. It was still early morning. He found
the child before he looked into her face.
“I am ashamed to be so weak,” she said. “But to-day--a little later--he
said I could rise. We are to be on deck for a half-hour after dinner,
he told me.”
“The little Gleam----” said Bellair....
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