Consideringly she glanced over the first real letter Oliver Tropenell
had ever written to her. Vividly she remembered the whole circumstances
surrounding the sending and receiving of that letter, for it had
followed close on the scene which, try as she might, she could not, even
now, forget. It was in this letter that she now held open in her hand,
that Oliver had heaped coals of fire on her head, by his quiet, kindly
acceptance of the trusteeship. There was unluckily one passage she felt
Alice should never have a chance of reading--for it concerned Gillie.
So, though she was sorry to destroy the letter, she felt that on the
whole it would be better to burn it, here and now.
Hesitatingly she held out the large sheet to the bright fire--and as she
was in the act of doing so, quite suddenly there flashed between the
lines of firm, black handwriting other lines--clear, brownish lines--of
the same handwriting. What an extraordinary, amazing, incredible thing!
Laura slipped down on to the hearthrug from the low arm-chair on which
she had been sitting with her despatch-box beside her, and bent forward,
full of tremulous excitement--her heart beating as it had never beat
before.
"The decks are cleared between us, Laura, for you know now
that I love you. You said, 'Oh, but this is terrible!' Yes,
Laura, love is terrible. It is not only cleansing,
inspiring, and noble, it is terrible too. Why is it that
you so misunderstand, misjudge, the one priceless gift, the
only bit of Heaven, which God or Nature--I care not
which--has given to man and woman?"
She stopped reading for a moment, then forced herself to go on, and the
next few lines of that strange, passionate secret letter, burnt
themselves into her brain.
She let the paper flutter down, and covered her face with her hands.
Could she--should she believe what this man said?
"What you, judging by your words to-day, take to be love is
as little like that passion as a deep draught of pure cold
water to a man dying of thirst is like the last glass of
drugged beer imbibed by some poor sot already drunk."
It was a horrible simile, and yet--yes, she felt that it was a true
smile. For the first time Laura Pavely dimly apprehended the meaning of
love in the same sense that Oliver Tropenell understood it.
She took up the sheet of paper again, and with the tears falling down
her cheeks, she read the postscript which was superposed, as it were, on
to the first.
"God bless you, my dear love, and grant you the peace which
seems the only thing for which you crave."
After giving a shamed, furtive look round the empty room, Laura Pavely
pressed the letter to her lips, and then she threw it into the fire, and
watched it vanish into brilliant flame, feeling as if a bit of her heart
were being burnt with it.
Slowly she got up and went to the door; opening it, she listened for a
while.
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