Love stories; Nobility -- Great Britain -- Fiction; Switzerland -- Fiction
“You said you were late, and you are getting later. Run home,
there’s a good little boy.”
“Why do you laugh at me?” he asked.
“Because I am laughing at myself,” she answered, “and you
should have your share.”
Then very nearly he kissed her, only he was in such a hurry, also the
willow log, a large one, was between them; possibly she had arranged
that this should be so. So he could only press her hand and depart,
muttering something indistinguishable. She watched him vanish, after
which she sat down again on the log and really did laugh. Still, it was
a queer kind of merriment, for by degrees it turned into little sobs
and tears.
“You little fool, what has happened to you?” she asked herself.
“Are you—are you—and if so, is he—? Oh! nonsense, and
yet, something has happened, for I never felt like this before. I
thought it was all rubbish, mere natural attraction, part of Nature’s
scheme and so on, as they write in the clever books. But it’s more
than that—at least it would be if I were—— Besides, I’m ages
older than he is, although I was born six months later. I’m a woman
full-grown, and he is only a boy. If he hadn’t been a boy he would
have taken his advantage when he must have known that I was weak as
water, just for the joy of seeing him again. Now he has lost his
chance, if he wanted one, for by to-morrow I shall be strong again, and
there shall be no more——”
Then she looked at the backs of her hands which she could not see
because of the gathering darkness, and as they were invisible, kissed
them instead, just as though they belonged to someone else. After this
she sat a while brooding and listening to the pulsing of her heart,
which was beating with unusual strength this night. As she did so in
that mysterious hour which sometimes comes to us in English summers, a
great change fell upon her. When she sat down upon that fallen tree she
was still a girl and virginal; when she rose from it she was a
developed, loving woman. It was as though a spirit had visited her and
whispered in her ear. She could almost hear the words. They were:
“Fulfil your fate. Love and be loved with body and with spirit, with
heart and soul and strength.”
At length she rose, and as she did so said aloud:
“I do not know who or what I have to thank for life and all that makes
me, me. But I am glad to have been born, now, who have often wished that
I had never been born. Even if I knew that I must pass away to-night, I
should still be glad, since I have learned that there is something in
me which cannot die. It came when that man kissed my hands, and it will
endure for ever.”
Godfrey was late for dinner, very late, and what was worse, his father
_had_ waited for him.
“I suppose you forgot that I dined at seven, not at eight,” was his
cold greeting, for Mr. Knight, a large eater like many teetotallers, was
one of those people who make a fetish of punctuality at meals, and
always grow cross when they are hungry.
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