Courtship -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Mate selection -- Fiction
“I know you love me, Mr. Dodd, and I feared this. I have tried to save
you the mortification of being declined by one who, in many things, is
your inferior. I have even been rude and unkind to you. Forgive me for
it. I meant it kindly. I regret it now. Mr. Dodd, I thank you for the
honor you do me, but I cannot accept your love.” There was a pause,
but David's tongue seemed glued to the roof of his mouth. He was not
surprised, yet he was stupefied when the blow came.
At last he gasped out, “You love some other man?”
Lucy was silent.
“Answer me, for pity's sake; give me something to help me.”
“You have no right to ask me such a question, but--I have no
attachment, Mr. Dodd.”
“Ah! then one word more. Is it because you cannot love me, or because
I am poor, and only first mate of an Indiaman?”
“_That_ I will not answer. You have no right to question a lady
why she--Stay! you wish to despise me. Well, why not, if that will
cure you of this unfortunate--Think what you please of me, Mr. Dodd,”
murmured Lucy, sadly.
“Ah! you know I can't,” cried David, despairingly.
“I know that you esteem me more than I deserve. Well, I esteem you,
Mr. Dodd. Why, then, can we not be friends? You have only to promise
me you will never return to this subject--come!”
“Me promise not to love you! What is the use? Me be your friend, and
nothing more, and stand looking on at the heaven that is to be
another's, and never to be mine? It is my turn to decline. Never.
Betrothed lovers or strangers, but nothing between! It would drive me
mad. Away from you, and out of sight of your sweet face, I may make
shift to live, and go through my duty somehow, for my mother's and
sister's sake.”
“You are wiser than I was, Mr. Dodd. Yes, we must part.”
“Of course we must. I have got my answer, and a kinder one than I
deserve; and now what is the polite thing for me to do, I wonder?”
David said this with terrible bitterness.
“You frighten me,” sighed Lucy.
“Don't you be frightened, sweet angel; there! I have been used to obey
orders all my life, and I am like a ship tossed in the breakers, and
you are calm--calm as death. Give me my orders, for God's sake.”
“It is not for me to command you, Mr. Dodd. I have forfeited that
right. But listen to her who still asks to be your friend, and she
will tell you what will be best for you, and kindest and most generous
to her.”
“Tell me about that last; the other is a waste of words.”
“I will, then. Your sister is somewhere in the neighborhood.”
“She is at ----; how did you know?”
“I saw her on your arm. I am glad she is so near--Oh, so glad! Bid my
uncle and aunt good-by; make some excuse. Go to your sister at once.
_She_ loves you. She is better than I am, if you will but see us
as we really are. Go to her at once,” faltered Lucy, who disliked Eve,
and Eve her.
“I will! I will! I have thought too little of my own flesh and blood.
Shall I go now?”
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