"A debt of honour! A few hundreds! My child, you cannot earn all that
by such trashy work as this that you are doing!" In spite of himself,
Norman regarded her with great admiration.
"The word cannot is not in my dictionary," said Doris, rather
grandiloquently. "It must be done!"
"Impossible!" he ejaculated.
"And as for the work being wrong," continued Doris, "I do not know that
it is wrong."
"Not know that it is wrong!" exclaimed the other. "When every one of
your oil-paintings is a sin against truth. You know it; surely this
must appeal to your honour!"
"I do not _call_ them oil-paintings," said Doris, proceeding to repeat
rapidly Bernard Cameron’s arguments, and ending with the words, uttered
very meaningly, "What is truth? We can but obey it as it appears to us.
You judge of my pictures from such a different standpoint. They are
untrue to all your canons of high art. But I know nothing comparatively
of art: I only try to make pictures which will please people, and be
worth the trifling sums of money they give for them. Such people could
not see any beauty in great works of art; but they say, ’That’s pretty!
That’s very pretty!’ when they see mine."
The artist was silent. It was true. What beauty could Jack Hodge and
his cousins Dick, Tom, and Harry, see in the Old Masters, or in the new
ones either? Yet they were the people who paid their shillings, and
even pounds for such pictures as this young girl provided for them.
"Believe me," continued Doris, "there is room in the world for workers
of all sort. The birds cannot all be nightingales; the flowers are not
all roses; and the human beings who entertain mankind are not all the
best and highest of their kind. But there is a place for the homely
sparrow, the little daisy, and the poor picture-maker to fill; and it is
not--not generous of those more gifted to come and find fault with
them!"
Her voice trembled and shook as she concluded; and, feeling that she was
about to break down, she bowed slightly to her visitor and left the
room.
Mr. Sinclair sprang up as if to stop her, yet did not do so. He opened
his mouth to speak, yet no word fell from his lips, and so he allowed
her to pass out.
"What a wonderful girl!" he muttered aloud, when she was gone, closing
the door softly behind her. "I admire her exceedingly! And I have hurt
her feelings! She has gone away to cry! What a stupid blunderer I am!
How brutal of me to wound her so! I’m sure I’m very sorry. I’ll write
her a message." He looked round for pen, ink, and paper, and, having
found some, wrote one line only:
"Forgive me, I cannot forgive myself. Norman Sinclair."
Having folded the paper, he addressed it to Miss Anderson, and laid it
conspicuously upon the table, and then very quietly left the house.
*CHAPTER XVI.*
*THE GREAT RENUNCIATION.*
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