The fire sank low in the grate. Sounds of the little house being locked
up for the night, and the footsteps of Mrs. Austin going upstairs to bed
fell unheeded on her ears, as she sat there still absorbed in these
reflections.
The business was wrong; she must get out of it, must give it up. But,
could she? Would she have strength of mind and will sufficient for the
task? It would be a hard thing to do. "If thy right hand offend thee,
cut it off and cast it from thee." Yes, she would do it. For
conscience’ sake, she would strip herself of this really lucrative
business which was so wrong, and would commence in some other way to
toil for the money which was required to pay some of the debt to
Bernard. With a capital of a hundred pounds she might start some
business, she thought, which would enable her to earn money rapidly.
Having made up her mind for what she called "The great renunciation,"
she lost no time in setting about it.
And first of all, before going to bed, she ascertained from her books
what sum of money was due to Alice--for all this time she had regularly
forwarded to her ex-partner’s brother one third of all profits made in
the business--then placing the amount in notes, in a sealed envelope, in
the inside of which she wrote "Conscience Money," she went out and
slipped it into the nearest pillar-box. "I cannot bother to register it
this time," she said to herself, "it will get there all right." Then,
quickly re-entering the house, she locked and bolted the door, and went
upstairs to her bed-room. But not to sleep. For hours she lay awake,
pondering over ways and means. Should she hand over to Bernard the
hundred pounds there would be altogether, after she had sold the last
remaining pictures, and the paint, mill-boards, etc., she had in the
garret? Or should she trade with the hundred pounds in some way, with
the view to making it bring forth a hundredfold? But in what way could
that be done? And, supposing she were to lose it? Bernard might never
have even that hundred pounds restored to him.
She fell asleep at last, her thoughts running to the tune of the hundred
pounds, and awoke about seven o’clock, still with the problem unsolved.
But the post brought her a letter from Bernard, saying that he was ill
and in trouble. He had lost his situation through ill health, and was
alone, helplessly ill, in his lodgings at Richmond.
That morning Doris left her assistants to pack up her stock-in-trade,
while she went to Richmond to see Bernard, whom she found in a small,
dingy house in Jocelyn Road. He was not in bed, but lying on a couch,
looking ill and unhappy. His unhappiness, however, quickly disappeared
when he perceived her.
"You here!" he exclaimed. "Oh, Doris, does my sight deceive me? Are
you really standing before me?"
"Yes. It is I," replied Doris, and then, laying her cool hand upon his
burning brow, she added, "Why, how hot you are! What is the matter?"
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account