He turned to Corydon. “These pains that you feel,” he said, “are from
the compressing of the womb. Don’t let them frighten you--everything is
just as it should be. You will find that you can help at each pang
by holding your breath; just as soon as you cry out, it releases the
diaphragm, and the pressure stops, and the pain passes. You must
bear each one just as long as you can. I don’t want you to faint, of
course--but the longer the pressure lasts, the sooner it will all be
over.”
The girl was staring at him with her wild eyes--she looked like a hunted
creature in a trap. It sounded all so very simple--but the horror of it
drove Thyrsis mad. Ah, God, it was monstrous--it was superhuman--it was
a thing beyond all thinking! It wrung all his soul, it shook him as the
tempest shakes a leaf--the sight of this awful agony.
It was like the sudden closing of a battle; the shock of squadrons, the
locking of warriors in a grip of death. There was no longer time for
words now, no longer time for a glance about him; the spasms came, one
after another, relentless, unceasing, inevitable--each trooping upon
the heels of the last; they were uncounted--uncountable--piling upon one
another like waves upon the sea, like the gusts of a raging storm. And
this girl, this child, that he had watched over so hungrily, that was so
tender and so sensitive--it was like wild horses tearing her apart! The
agony would flame up in her, he would see her body turn rigid, her face
flush scarlet, her teeth become set and her gums fleshed. The muscles
would stand out in her cheeks, the perspiration start upon her forehead.
She would grip Thyrsis’ hand until all the might of both his arms was
not enough to match her.
On the other side of the bed knelt the young nurse, wrestling with the
other hand; and Thyrsis could see her face flush too, each time--until
at last a cry seem to tear its way from the girl’s throat, and would
sink back, faint and white.
It was a new aspect of life to Thyrsis, a new revelation of being; it
was pain such as he had never dreamed it was horror the like of which
was unknown in his philosophy. All the suffering of the night was
nothing to a minute of this; it came upon her with the rush of a flood
of waters--it seized her--instant, insistent, relentless as the sweep
of the planets. Thyrsis had been all unprepared for it; he cried out
for time to think--to realize it. But there was no time to think or
to realize it. The thing was here--now! It glared into his eyes like
a fiend of hell; it was fiery, sharp as steel--and it had to be seized
with the naked hands!
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