They talked about Thyrsis and his needs. Presumably, he said, he would
have money from his new book in the fall, but meantime he wanted to take
his family into the country. He could live on thirty dollars a month; it
would be a matter of some two hundred and fifty dollars. Darrell said he
would give him this; and Thyrsis sat there, powerless to thank him, his
voice trembling, and a mist of tears in his eyes.
He went on to tell his friend of the work that he meant to do. Darrell
had said that to him the Civil War was a crime; but Thyrsis did not know
what he meant by that. “I believe in my country!” he said. “It has
tried for high things--and it will come to them! I know that it can be
thrilled and roused, and made to see the shame into which it is fallen.”
Darrell pressed his arm, and answered, with a smile, “I won’t argue with
you about the War; you go ahead and write your book!”
So Thyrsis went home to Corydon, as one who brings a reprieve to a
prisoner under sentence of death. Such a deliverance as it was to them!
And such transports of relief and gratitude as they experienced! He sang
the praises of Darrell, and of the new friends he had made at Darrell’s;
also he brought an invitation for Corydon to come with him to an evening
reception the next week. They were anxious to meet her, he said; and
Corydon was anxious to go.
But, alas, this did not work out according to expectations. Thyrsis
discovered now what his wife had meant when she wrote that suffering and
humiliation were breaking down her character. She could not bear to meet
intellectual people, to take part in the competition of their life.
For the most part these were men and women of intense personalities,
absorbed in their own ideas, keenly critical, and not very merciful to
any sort of weakness. And Corydon was morbidly aware of her own lack of
accomplishments, and acutely sensitive as to what others thought about
her. A strange figure she must have made in any one’s drawing-room--with
the old dress she had fixed up, and the lace-collar she had borrowed for
the occasion, and the sad face with the large dark eyes. The talk of the
company ran to politics; and Corydon had nothing to say about politics.
She could only sit in a corner while Thyrsis talked, and suffer agonies
of humiliation.
To make matters worse, there came a literary lion that evening; one of
the few modern writers whose books Corydon knew and loved. But when they
were introduced, he scarcely looked at her; he went on talking to an
East Side poetess whose opinions were fluent and ready. So Corydon found
herself shunted into a corner with an unknown old lady. It was one
of Corydon’s peculiarities that she abhorred old ladies; and this one
questioned her about the feeding of infants and told her that she was
ill-equipped for the responsibilities of motherhood!
On her way home she poured out her bitterness to Thyrsis. “I can see
exactly how it is,” she said. “They all think you’ve married a pretty
face!”
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