Loved you better than you knewMiller, Alex. McVeigh, Mrs.
Philosophy
Loved you better than you knew
Miller, Alex. McVeigh, Mrs.
Dime novels; Romance fiction
“I would give anything to see poor Cinthy real happy again like she
was that night. I used to be too strict with the child, I know, and
I’ve repented it now. How happy she might have been if she’d had such
a mother as Mrs. Varian, who would have spoiled and petted her as
mothers do, and made her life so bright. I tell you, Everard, she is a
good woman in spite of her pride. Our minister says she is so good to
the poor, and, besides, she has given a thousand dollars to repair the
church. He told me he did not believe she was so proud and exclusive as
some people thought. He had called on her once, and she was very kind
and sweet in a way, but there was something rather sad in her manner,
or cynical, maybe, as if she had some trouble and was not resigned to
it.”
Would she never get done talking on this (to her) most interesting
subject?
Everard Dawn yawned impatiently, and answered thoughtlessly:
“Yes, she was always like that, generous to a fault, noble at heart,
charming, but jealous, passionate, unreasonable.”
“Why, Everard, did you know her some time?” she exclaimed.
“I know a nun who did,” he answered curtly, getting up from his seat,
and adding: “Rebecca, it is about sunset, and I will take a walk and a
smoke before our early tea.”
Donning great-coat and hat, he hurried out-of-doors, thinking:
“If I had not got away from her chatter of Pauline Varian, I should
have screamed out aloud like a nervous woman, I verily believe.”
He walked away in the dying glow of the rosy sunset toward the little
town, passing Idlewild, as he did daily, and watched by eyes of which
he little recked, for he was too proud to glance toward her windows.
Every day, with an angry pain, she had seen him pass and she thanked
fate there would be but one day more of it, for the maid was well again
now, though why she should have watched him when she need not, no man
could have told, since the sex is rather obtuse on feminine caprices.
Why need she follow him with such straining gaze, she, the proud,
wealthy Mrs. Varian, admired of men, envied of women, no less for her
charms than her gifts of fortune? She had everything life could give
but happiness. He--and she knew it--was but a poor lawyer, too careless
of fortune to woo her successfully, too weary of life to find pleasure
in it; not quite so blue-blooded as the Varians, either, yet not a man
to look down on, for nature at least had been lavish of brains and
beauty and stubborn pride, not to mention an unenviable capacity for
suffering stolidly borne.
In her heart she believed him weak and unstable and scorned him
accordingly; but as for him, he understood her better than she did
herself, yet never relaxed his resentment over a cruel wrong, never
contemplated forgiveness, even if she should pray for it.
Watching her carriage yesterday, as it dashed past the steps where he
had stood, he had recalled with grim pain some fitting words:
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