“Before this you may have received a letter I sent to your Cheltenham
address, trusting it might reach you before you left. As, however, I
have received no answer to it, I suppose it must have been too late. It
will, therefore, probably be sent after you. It consisted merely of a
few lines, begging you at once to send me the address of your friend,
Miss Freer, to whom, on the chance of her being there, even had you
left, I wrote at the same time. To that letter neither have I received
any answer. Only to-day have I learned the reason—that she accompanied
you to India last April. This news was a great shock to me. Still
greater the information that accompanied it—that Miss Freer went out to
India the betrothed wife of a gentleman to whom she was to be married
very shortly after her arrival! The person who told me this, mentioned
having heard it directly from yourself at Altes, some months ago. I may
as well tell you that my informant was Sophy Berwick. She had no reason
for telling me. She did incidentally. Nor can I see that it is likely
she was mistaken. Certain words and allusions of Marion’s own confirm me
in believing it. Still there is a chance—a mere chance—that it may
not be so; and on this I now write to you, begging you as speedily as
possible to tell me the truth. At the time Marion, under pressure of
strong excitement, let fall the hints I refer to, she evidently did
not consider herself irrevocably bound. She alluded to some concealment
concerning herself, some obstacle connected with her father’s wishes.
Had I only then dared to speak more openly of my own hopes and
intentions all might have been well. But I thought it right not to do
so; and since I have been free to speak, a series of cross-purposes,
beginning with your sudden flight from Altes, and ending with my last
letters missing you (previous ones having shared the same fate through
an incorrect address), has, I fear, separated us—for ever. It is very
terrible to me to realise that it probably is so. As to her, I must
try to be unselfish enough to hope that all this may have fallen more
lightly on her younger and more elastic nature. I do not know if you
ever guessed this secret of mine? I almost wish now that I had confided
it to you. The enclosed letter contains a full explanation of all in
my conduct, that to my poor darling must have seemed mysterious and
inexplicable. If, when you receive this, she be yet by any blessed
chance free, give it to her. All then will, I feel assured, be well. If,
on the other hand, as is more probable, she be already bound to another,
even perhaps by this time married, return it to me as it is; and never,
I beseech you, mention my name to her. Better far she should forget me,
despise me even; than that, by learning that I, alas, have not ceased,
never can cease to care for her, her married life with another should be
embittered by vain regret. And in no case, mind you, do I blame her. I
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