So, in the intervals of her irritation at her husband, she lived, to all
appearance, contentedly enough, in the death-in-life monotony so fatal
to all growth and healthy development. Geoffrey had no idea how bad
things were with her. He thought he was giving her all she would accept,
undisturbed peace and perfect independence. Yet his very heart bled for
her, often, very often when she little suspected it. He made one grand
mistake; he gave her no responsibilities, no necessary duties. Her time
was her own; the housekeeping was all attended to by a confidential and
efficient servant, whose accounts even were overlooked by the master
instead of by the mistress of the establishment.
Money Marion had in plenty, more than she knew what to do with; for she
had never been “fanatica” on the subject of dress, and even her old love
of books and music seemed to be deserting her. She would not ride. The
horse destined for her use stood idle in the stable; and more than once
Geoffrey so nearly lost heart that he was on the point of selling it.
He had one great advantage over Marion. He was the possessor of that
mysterious, and to mere spectators, somewhat irritating gift, known
as “animal spirits.” There were times when, in spite of all, his
unspeakable disappointment, his bitter self-reproach, the young man
could not help feeling happy. An exciting run, a bracing frosty morning
in his fields, filled him for the time with his old joyousness, the
exhilaration of life in itself, apart from all modifying circumstances.
Poor fellow! She need not have grudged him, what afterwards on looking
back through a clearer atmosphere, she believed to have been the only
compensatory influence in the lonely, unsympathised-with existence,
to one so frank and affectionate, more trying even than she, with her
greater powers of reserve and self-reliance, could altogether realize.
Now and then, though rarely, the cloudy gloom of mutual reserve and
apparent indifference, into which day by day they were drifting
further, was broken, painfully enough, by stormy flashes of outspoken
recrimination and wounding reproach. Naturally, they were both
sweet-tempered, but this wretched state of things was fast souring them.
Scenes miserable to witness, had any friend been by, lowering in the
extreme to reflect upon in calmer moments, from time to time occurred.
In these it is but justice to Geoffrey to say that he was rarely, if
ever, the aggressor.
One dull, foggy morning, a “by-day,” unfortunately, for Marion, yielding
to atmospheric influences, was in a mood at once captious and gloomy,
little disposed to take interest in anything—least of all in her
husband’s stable—on this uninviting morning, she was sitting,
discontented and unoccupied, in the little boudoir she had not yet
found heart to re-furnish, when the door opened suddenly and Geoffrey
appeared. He burst in, looking eager and happy. Like his old self, for
the time at least.
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