When he had gone, Marion rose from her seat and sauntered to the window.
She stood there gazing out at the dreary garden, desolate and bare, save
for the leaves thickly strewing the paths and beds. Already her heart
was reproaching her for her cruelty; already her conscience was bitterly
accusing her. She had done very wrong; she knew, she owned it to
herself. But she could not feel responsible, even for her own misdeeds.
“They are all a part of the whole,” she cried, “all a part of the
wretched, miserable whole.”
She “could not help it!” “It was not in her nature to be good when she
was miserable.” “And I am no more to blame,” she thought, defiantly,
“for being wicked than a flower for not blooming without sunshine.”
But does the poor flower resolutely turn from the light? Does it not
rather welcome eagerly each narrow ray that penetrates to its dark
dwelling, and with humble gratitude make the most of the sunshine
vouchsafed to it?
Half-an-hour later Marion heard a clatter in the direction of the
stables, voices eager and excited—more clatter, the dogs barking. Then
the sound of a horse’s feet gradually sobering down into a steady pace,
as they were lost in the distance. Geoffrey had gone out riding. And on
the new mare, the footman told her, when she rang for coals, and made
some indirect enquiry.
“Very handsome she is, ma’am,” added he, “but very awkward at starting.
My master had some trouble to get her out of the yard. She took fright
at a heap of bricks lying there for repairs. Perhaps you heard the
noise, ma’am?”
“Yes,” said Marion, indifferently, “I thought I heard the dogs barking.”
In her heart she felt rather uneasy. She wished she had gone out with
her husband to admire his favourite; she wished they had not separated
with such angry feelings; she wished he had not chosen to-day for trying
the new mare!
She put on her hat, and, with a book in her hand, ensconced herself in
a sheltered nook, which after some difficulty she succeeded in finding.
Out of doors it felt less chilly than in the house, and gradually she
grew soothed and calm. She thought to herself she would stay out them
for some hours; the day was, after all, mild and pleasant, and the
perfect quiet would do her good. But her anticipations were doomed to be
disappointed. In less than an hour she heard from her retreat the sound
of approaching carriage-wheels, then ladies’ voices at the hall door;
and in a few minutes James appeared, breathless in hunting for her in
all her usual haunts.
“The Misses Copley, if you please ma’am, in the drawing-room.”
“Very well,” she replied, half provoked, and yet not altogether sorry
for the interruption, “I will be with them directly. The young ladies,
you said?”
“Yes, ma’am, Miss Copley and Miss Georgie.”
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