'How are you to help it?' she returned, with a faint smile that was very
near tears; 'and it would be no sacrifice, as far as I know my own
heart. I think my one wish is to comfort you, and to make your life a
little less dreary, Cyril,' looking at him earnestly; and it seemed to
him as though her face were like an angel's. 'You will be brave and bear
this for my sake. When you are tempted to lose faith, and hope seems
farthest from you, you must say to yourself: "Audrey has not deserted
me; she is mine still--mine always and for ever!"'
Then he bowed his head on her hands and wept like a child. She passed
her hand over his hair caressingly, and her own tears flowed; but after
a little while she spoke again:
'I have told father so, and I have told mother; I said to both of them
that I would never give you up. We may live apart. Oh yes, I know that
it is all very sad and miserable; but you will let me keep your ring,
Cyril, because I still belong to you.'
He tried to steady his voice, and failed; all his manhood could not give
him fortitude at such a moment. He could only clasp her in his arms, and
beg her for her own sweet sake to listen to him.
And presently, when he was a little stronger, he put it all before her.
He explained to her as well as he could the future that lay before him;
the yoke of his father's sin was on his neck, and it was useless to try
and break it off. He might call himself Blake, and look for new work in
a new place, and the miserable fact would leak out.
There is a fatality in such cases, he went on. 'One may try to hush it
up, to live quietly, to attract no notice; but sooner or later the
secret will ooze out. I think I am prouder than most men--perhaps I am
morbid; but I feel I shall never live down this shame.'
'You will live it down one day.'
'Yes, the day they put me in my coffin; but not before, Audrey.' Then,
as she turned pale at the thought, he accused himself bitterly for his
selfishness. 'I am making you wretched, and you are an angel of
goodness!' he cried remorsefully. 'But you must forgive me, darling;
indeed, I am not myself.'
'Do you think I do not know that?'
'A braver man than I might shrink from such a future. What have I done
that such a thing should happen to me? I loved my work, and now it is
taken from me; as far as I know, I may have to dig for my bread.'
'No, no!' she returned, holding him fast; for this was more than she
could bear to hear--that the bright promise of his youth was blasted and
destroyed. 'Cyril, if you love me, as you say you do, will you promise
me two things?'
He looked at her a little doubtfully.
'If I love you!' he said reproachfully.
'Then I will alter my sentence, I will say, because of your love for me,
will you grant me these two things? Cyril, you must forgive your mother.
However greatly she has erred, you must remember that it was for your
sake.'
'I do remember it.'
'And you will be good to her?'
Then, his face became very stern.
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