Lucifer: A Theosophical Magazine. Volume I. September 1887-February 1888.Various
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Lucifer: A Theosophical Magazine. Volume I. September 1887-February 1888.
Various
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To Hilary the cynic, the thing suddenly assumed an intelligible
form. Fleta wanted to take a journey in which she would prefer a
companion because of its danger; yet she could not give her
confidence to any one. She proposed to herself to use his love for
her; she offered him her society as a bribe to take care of her, to
ask no questions and tell no tales. The idea did not please him.
“I have heard of princesses risking anything, relying on the power
of their position; I have heard that the royal caprice is not to be
measured by the reason of other men and women. Perhaps it is so. But
Fleta! I thought her different even from her own family.”
These were the first thoughts that came into his mind. His ready
conclusion was that Fleta was willing that he should be her lover if
he would be her servant also. But immediately afterwards came the
fair vision of Fleta herself in her white robes, and with the face
of a priestess. Her purpose was inscrutable, like herself. He
confessed this as he stood there, surging doubts in his mind. And
then suddenly a fragrance came across his sense—a strong perfume,
that he associated with Fleta’s dress—and next a breath of incense.
His brain grew dizzy; he staggered back and leaned against the wall.
He no longer appeared to himself to be in Father Amyot’s cell—he was
in Fleta’s laboratory, and her hand touched his face, her breath was
on his brow. Ah, what madness of joy to be with her! To travel with
her, to be her associate and companion to pass all the hours of the
day by her side. Suddenly he roused himself, and, starting forward,
approached Father Amyot.
“I will go,” he said.
“It will cost you dear,” said the priest. “Think again before you
decide.”
“It is useless to think,” cried Hilary. “Why should I think? I
feel—and to feel is to live.”
Father Amyot seemed not to hear his words. He was apparently already
buried in prayer. Evidently he had said all that he intended to say;
and Hilary, after a glance at him, turned and left the cell. He knew
the priest’s moods too well to speak again, when once that deep
cloud of profound abstraction had descended on his face.
He went away, passing back as he had come, through the Cathedral. At
the high altar he paused an instant, and then knelt and murmured a
prayer. It was one he had learned, and he scarce attached any
meaning to the familiar words. But it comforted him to feel that he
had prayed, be it never so meaningless a prayer. For Hilary had been
reared in all the habits of the devout Catholic.
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