"If there was a God, He'd answer prayers. Or He'd give some sign."
Lydia lifted a tear-stained face from John's shoulder. "He's never
paid any attention to me," she said tensely. "I've tried every way to
make Him hear. Sometimes in the dusk, I've taken Adam and we've gone
deep into the woods and I've sat and thought about Him till--till there
was nothing else in the world but my thought of Him. And I never got a
sign. And I've floated on my back in the lake looking up into the sky
trying to make myself believe He was there--and I couldn't. All I knew
was that Mother and Patience were dead and in coffins in the ground."
Levine's sallow face was set with pain. "Why, child, this isn't right.
You're too young for such thoughts! Lydia, do you read the Bible?"
She nodded. "I've tried that too--but Jesus might have believed
everything He said was true, yet there mightn't have been a word of
truth in it. Do you believe in God?"
John's hold on the thin hands tightened. He stared long and
thoughtfully at the snowflakes sifting endlessly past the window.
"Lydia," he said, at last. "I'll admit that my faith in the hereafter
and in an All-seeing God has been considerably shaken as I've grown
older. But I'll admit too, that I've refused to give the matter much
thought. I tell you what I'll do. Let's you and I start on our first
travel trip, right now! Let's start looking for God, together. He's
there all right, my child. But you and I don't seem to be able to use
the ordinary paths to get to Him. So we'll hack out our own trail, eh?
And you'll tell me what your progress is--and where you get lost--and
I'll tell you. It may take us years, but we'll get there, by heck!
Eh, young Lydia?"
Lydia looked into the deep black eyes long and earnestly. And as she
looked there stole into her heart a sense of companionship, of
protection, of complete understanding, that spread like a warm glow
over her tense nerves. It was a sense that every child should grow up
with, yet that Lydia had not known since her mother's death.
"Oh!" she cried, "I feel happier already. Of course we'll find Him.
I'll begin my hunt to-morrow."
John smoothed her tumbled hair gently. "We're great friends, aren't
we, Lydia! I've an idea you'll always believe in me no matter what
folks say, eh?"
"You bet!" replied Lydia solemnly.
John Levine went back to his duties as sheriff and Lydia and Amos and
Lizzie missed him for a long time. But gradually life fell back into
the old routine and spring, then summer, were on them almost before
they realized winter was gone.
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