"Do not then turn away from me without consideration, think of
your sister--of me--and of yourself, unprotected in a world of
strangers, and, if you can, accept the love of
"Your most devoted and respectful
"ARTHUR CLAIR."
"The Rectory,
"Friday Evening."
Mabel was troubled, not only by the generous tone of the letter, but
because it brought to view, subjects which she had not allowed herself
to think upon; for her real strength consisted in a knowledge of her
weakness, and she knew that she should be quite incapable of acting, if,
to present pain, she added the contemplation of future trials. But now,
Clair, in offering her a provision for the future had forced her to
think of it. Perhaps generously to save her from the imputation of
accepting him, only when pressed by circumstances, as she might be, in
but a few weeks.
Now the letter as it lay before her would have her think. She had but a
few minutes before left her mother's room with the saddest conviction;
and now, crowding on her remembrance came a thousand little speeches,
that told her, how earnestly, that dear mother had tried to warn her of
her approaching death. Speeches which then appeared but the result of
nervous weakness, now occurred to her as truths, which no reasoning
could controvert. Some of their little property she knew rested in the
hands of an improvident and extravagant aunt, and the remainder of their
income would fail altogether when her mother's pension dropped.
And Amy, whose precarious health rendered her now unable to be even
moved from room to room, she on whom she had lavished all the comforts
which affluence can invent, how could she bear the trials of poverty?
How could she suffer the privations to which they would inevitably be
reduced; she who could scarcely hear the sound of a heavy footfall
without pain, or be moved, without the greatest agony, from the couch on
which she constantly lay. Not that she wavered with regard to Clair, but
his letter made her uneasy. Poverty, death, and even that place where
"all that's wretched paves the way to death," she would have preferred
to marriage, if she could but have endured them alone. But who would be
her companion? She turned her eyes to the bed where, with cheeks flushed
and eyes that scarcely closed, lay the little sufferer, her small,
wasted hand tightly compressed as if with pain. At this moment she
slightly moved, and Mabel was instantly by her side. Her eyes glistening
bright with fever were now opened wide, and gazing anxiously on poor
Mabel's tell-tale face.
"Mabel," said she in a low, sweet but peculiar voice, "sit down by me,
for I must talk to you to-night, as my pain is all gone."
Mabel seated herself by her, and took the little hand in hers.
"You will not be frightened, Mabel dear," said the child, "if I talk
about strange things, and about going away."
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