Mad: A Story of Dust and AshesFenn, George Manville
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Mad: A Story of Dust and Ashes
Fenn, George Manville
Fiction
A long interview was Mr Sterne's this day, for Mrs Hardon was more
than ordinarily miserable, and had informed him two or three times over
that she was about to take to her bed for good.
"But it does not matter, sir; it's only for a little while, and then
perhaps I shall be taken altogether. I'm of no use here, only to be a
burden to that poor girl and my husband. But for me and the different
fancies I have, that poor child need not be always working her fingers
to the bone. But she will grow tired of it, and Mr Hardon's health
will fail, and our bit of furniture will be seized; and I'm sure I'd
rather die at once than that we should all be in the workhouse."
"But," said Mr Sterne, smiling, "don't you think matters might just as
likely take the other direction? See now if it does not come a brighter
day to-morrow, with a little mental sunshine in return for resignation;"
and he whispered the last few words.
Now there was some truth in what Mrs Septimus Hardon said; for had it
not been for her liking for strange luxuries when her sick fits were on,
Lucy need not have worked so hard. At other times Mrs Hardon was
self-denying to an excess; but when in bed, probably from the effort of
complaining, her appetite increased to a terrible extent, and she found
that she required sticks of larks roasted, fried soles, oysters, pickled
salmon, or chicken, to keep her up, while port-wine was indispensable.
But if she had preferred ortolans to larks, game and truffles to chicken
and oysters, if the money could have been obtained she would have had
them. And many a day Septimus and Lucy dined off bread-and-cheese, and
many a night went supperless to bed, that the invalid's fancies might be
gratified.
The conversation went on, and Lucy at her work more than once raised her
eyes; but when her mother's complaints were like the last, she bent her
head, and the tears she could not restrain fell hot and fast upon the
material before her.
"What have I to hope for?" moaned Mrs Hardon, taking refuge in tears
herself when she saw how Lucy was moved. "What have I to hope for?"
"Hope itself, Mrs Hardon," said the curate firmly. "You suffer from a
diseased mind as well as from your bodily ailment; and could you but
come with me for once, only during a day's visiting, I think you would
afterwards bow your head in thankfulness even for your lot in life, as
compared with those of many you would see."
"Yes, yes, yes, I know," sobbed the poor woman; "but don't be angry with
me. I know how weak and wicked I am to murmur, when they study me as
they do; but when I am like this, this weary time comes on, I am never
satisfied. Don't--don't be angry with me."
Mrs Hardon's sobs became so violent that Lucy hurried to the bed and
took the weary head upon her breast; when, drawing his chair nearer, the
curate took the thin worn hand held out so deprecatingly to him.
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