Madam Constantia : $b The romance of a prisoner of war in the revolution (South Carolina)Carter, Jefferson
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Madam Constantia : $b The romance of a prisoner of war in the revolution (South Carolina)
Carter, Jefferson
South Carolina -- History -- Revolution, 1775-1783 -- Fiction; United States -- History -- Revolution, 1775-1783 -- Fiction
She had not had the strength to carry it through! Why? My heart beat
more quickly as I pondered the question. I no longer felt the fog on my
cheek, the ague in my bones. The note of the bull-frog lost its
melancholy, the sigh of the wind across the marshes its sadness. Warmth
awoke in me, and with it hope, and a purpose—a purpose, wild it might
be, high-strained it might be, and extravagant, but deliberate. For as
certainly as I loved her, as certainly as my heartstrings were torn for
the tenderness of her body broken by so many fatigues, for the agony of
her spirit which had borne her so far, as certainly as she was heaven
and earth to me—and she loved me, I believed it now!—so surely did I
know that there was but one bridge which could cross the gulf that
divided me from her! There was one way, and one way only, which could
bring me to her.
And that way lay through the door of the mill. Yet first—first, strong
as my purpose was, I had to fight the temptation to pay myself a part of
that which fate might withhold from me. To clasp her knees as I stood
beside her, to draw her down to me, to hold her on my breast, to cover
her face, white and woe-begone in the moonlight, with kisses, to tell
her that I loved her—this had been heaven to me! But I had to forego it.
I might not pay myself beforehand. Afterwards—but I dared not think of
afterwards. I dared not think of what lay between the present and the
future. I must act, not think.
“We had better go,” she repeated dully.
“And you thought it might save him?” I said.
“I thought that I could do it!” she answered. She shivered.
“You shall do it,” I replied. “Come!”
I led my horse towards the door, and had travelled half the space that
lay between us and the threshold before she grasped my meaning; before
she moved. Then, “Stop!” she cried. She pressed her horse abreast of me.
“Don’t you understand?” she cried. “Don’t you see—”
“Yes,” I said, “I see.” And for a moment, as we passed from the
moonlight into the shadow, and the horses’ shoes clattered on the stones
before the door, I let my hand rest on her knee. “I see. But I also
remember. I remember that your father saved my life. I remember that I
delivered him up to death. I remember—many things. And if any risk of
mine may avail to save him, God knows that I take the hazard
cheerfully!”
She cried, “No!” with a sort of passion, and she tried to draw me back.
But it was too late. I was at the door. I kicked it.
“House!” I cried. “House!” My mind was made up. Whatever came of it,
whatever the issue, I would go through with the venture.
Immediately a light shone under the door, a voice cried, “Halloa!” And
while, stammering words half-heard, the girl still tried to turn me from
my purpose, the door was opened, and a light was flashed in my face. A
man confronted me on the threshold, two others slipped by me into the
darkness. Probably the purpose of the latter was to cut off my retreat,
but I paid no heed to them.
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