Americans -- France -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction
She made no immediate reply, but continued to open and close her fan
thoughtfully. At last, “I’ve something important to say to you,” she
resumed with decision. “I want you to know to a certainty that I’ve
a very high opinion of you.” Longmore gave an uneasy shift to his
position. To what was she coming? But he said nothing, and she went on:
“I take a great interest in you. There’s no reason why I shouldn’t
say it. I feel a great friendship for you.” He began to laugh, all
awkwardly--he hardly knew why, unless because this seemed the very irony
of detachment. But she went on in her way: “You know, I suppose, that a
great disappointment always implies a great confidence--a great hope.”
“I’ve certainly hoped,” he said, “hoped strongly; but doubtless never
rationally enough to have a right to bemoan my disappointment.”
There was something troubled in her face that seemed all the while to
burn clearer. “You do yourself injustice. I’ve such confidence in your
fairness of mind that I should be greatly disappointed if I were to find
it wanting.”
“I really almost believe you’re amusing yourself at my expense,” the
young man cried. “My fairness of mind? Of all the question-begging
terms!” he laughed. “The only thing for one’s mind to be fair to is the
thing one FEELS!”
She rose to her feet and looked at him hard. His eyes by this time were
accustomed to the imperfect light, and he could see that if she was
urgent she was yet beseechingly kind. She shook her head impatiently and
came near enough to lay her fan on his arm with a strong pressure. “If
that were so it would be a weary world. I know enough, however, of your
probable attitude. You needn’t try to express it. It’s enough that your
sincerity gives me the right to ask a favour of you--to make an intense,
a solemn request.”
“Make it; I listen.”
“DON’T DISAPPOINT ME. If you don’t understand me now you will to-morrow
or very soon. When I said just now that I had a high opinion of you,
you see I meant it very seriously,” she explained. “It wasn’t a vain
compliment. I believe there’s no appeal one may make to your generosity
that can remain long unanswered. If this were to happen--if I were to
find you selfish where I thought you generous, narrow where I thought
you large”--and she spoke slowly, her voice lingering with all emphasis
on each of these words--“vulgar where I thought you rare, I should think
worse of human nature. I should take it, I assure you, very hard indeed.
I should say to myself in the dull days of the future: ‘There was ONE
man who might have done so and so, and he too failed.’ But this shan’t
be. You’ve made too good an impression on me not to make the very best.
If you wish to please me for ever there’s a way.”
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