Country life -- Fiction; New England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
"When I came to settle up my estate, I found myself practically
impoverished. That is, everything had been so attached, encumbered, I
could get no benefit from it. My income must be turned back to the
estate, to save it. My only salvation—yours—was to cut myself off from
all but a pittance, until every claim had been met, and I stood free and
quit. That has been done. I owe no man anything. I have sacrificed
much, but not my integrity, and not one acre, one security belonging to
the property your great-grandfather left me, rescued from my husband. It
is all intact. Your inheritance——"
Katherine was on her feet in an instant.
"Inheritance!" she blazed. "You have just told me what my inheritance
is! Fraud, lies, treachery—everything that is base. What does money
matter to a creature like me? I can never get away from what I am. As
you say, ’the taint is too strong!’ Hush! _I_ am speaking now. And
I’m _going_ to speak, and you’ve _got_ to listen! For once in my life,
I am going to have my say—I’m going to forget I am young and you are
old, and I’m going to let you know what I have been feeling, thinking,
_being_ all these years, when you’ve thought I was a tame thing you
could order about, and scold and ridicule, to the top of your bent.
"I know, now, why I was a lonely, unloved child. I’ve always wondered,
before, for I _tried_ to be good—even when I was too much of a baby to
be anything else. I know, now, why you watched me out of the corners of
your eyes, as if you were waiting for me to try to deceive you, in some
way. You were waiting for my ’_inheritance_’ to crop out. How could I
ever have been anything, but at my worst with you? How could I be
clever, when you insisted I was dull? How could I be _myself_, when you
condemned me, by your fears, to be my grandfather, and my father? What
you waited for, came. Of course it would. I stole, I lied. I was a
coward. ’The taint was too strong!’
"But let me tell you this, it needn’t have been so. I could have been
saved if, when I was a child—— Oh, I can’t bear it! I can’t bear it!"
She shrank together into a wretched heap on the floor, her head bowed on
her knees.
Madam Crewe gazed at her, a strange shadow creeping over her face. As
if to herself, she murmured, "That is what your grandfather used to
plead—and your father. Whenever they were discomforted, they always
said they couldn’t bear it. So they didn’t bear it. _I_—and others—had
to bear it."
The sound of her voice, low as it was, brought Katherine to her feet.
All the pent-in passion of her life, breaking loose now, beat
mercilessly down upon the defenseless old woman before her. In some
unaccountable way, the two seemed to have changed places. It was she
who dominated, her grandmother who submitted.
The lamp burned low, sending out a rank odor that filled the room. The
clock struck out three deep bell-notes.
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