Country life -- Fiction; New England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
—"By your own say-so you ain’t any of those things.—You got a mind o’
your own an’ a conscience o’ your own.... You’re strong as they
make’m.... This hangin’ on your antsisters, for good or for bad, makes
me sick.... Don’t you fool yourself: It’s every man for himself, these
days, thank God! ... Somethin’ beautiful in all your blows, if you only
had sense to see. The hardest knock you ever got, you’d see
_stars_...."
* * * * *
Once, when she was a child, Katherine had been given a toy which, more
than all of her others, had filled her with delight and wonderment.
It was a large, circular box, set on a pedestal, revolving on a pin.
Perpendicular slits were cut, at regular intervals, all around its lower
wall, and within were coiled long, colored picture-scrolls, facing
outward. When the box, or drum, revolved, the scene depicted suddenly
sprang into motion.
She could not have followed, had she tried, the subtle, involuted train
of association that led her back to her experience with the long
disremembered plaything. But, even as she thought of it, she saw
herself, as she had so often sat, a disappointed, bewildered child,
staring at the stupid, tiresome lengths of crude, static prints, which
her inexperienced hand had not learned to adjust, so they would become
significant, entertaining.
Like a sudden flash of light, came the suggestion that, up to this, she
had sat just so, regarding life. Seeing it in the flat, finding it dull,
stale, unprofitable. What if it were possible to learn the trick of
adjustment! What if it were possible to discover the dynamic pivot, by
which the great revolution would take place, the revolution that would
make life interesting, give it meaning? Had any one ever found either?
Instantly, she thought of two persons—the two who, more than any others
she had ever known, had got the most good pleasure out of life. Daniel
Ballard—Martha Slawson. Two very different personalities, in widely
different situations, yet with the same invincible courage, the same
curious capacity for inspiring others with their own faith in all that
is best. These two had the same wide vision, the same high purpose.
They both had looked on life, and found it good.
Long before her car reached Burbank, Katherine had determined to go
home.
She heard, with composure, the Junction "starter’s" announcement, that
her car had gone out three minutes before. She must wait an hour, if
she wanted to take the next. In her present mood, she was glad of the
opportunity to try her new-found strength. Out of her depths of
depression she had leaped in one miraculous moment, to a height of
exaltation such as she had never known before. She was ready to fight
the world, in order to prove she could come out conqueror.
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