"So long as I know you are in the city I am not lonely. The air I
breathe seems impregnated with your breath, and I am happy and contented
to await your coming. If I walk down street, I feel a kindly interest in
the throngs of people I meet, because perchance you may be among them.
But when you are out of town the whole world seems depopulated.
Yesterday I walked on Broadway a little while, but the people all looked
like ghastly phantoms to me. Because you were not, I knew, among them,
there seemed to be no life, no beauty in the moving shapes. I hurried
home and hid myself in these rooms, so full of memories of you."
Sweet as were her words of love and devotion, they cast a faint shadow
on her listener's face.
"I am afraid you allow yourself to be too melancholy during my absence!"
he said. "It makes me sad to think of you so lonely, I like to think of
you as happy and contented always."
"Oh, I am, I am!" she hastened to reply. "How could I help being happy
in this ideal life of ours? We are so independent of the world, so in
harmony with our own principles, so true to each other--Oh, Percy! I do
not think two people could be happier then we are; do you? Are you not
perfectly happy with me, dear?"
Just for one second Percy hesitated before he replied. Then he met the
anxious look of inquiry in Dolores' eyes, and answered:
"Yes, perfectly: or rather, I am happier in my companionship with you
than I have been in many years. I know my life is better, too, in many
ways, and my thoughts fairer, than in my old restless days of adventure.
Yet, of course, no lot is without its annoyances and troubles. Did you
ever think how strange it is, that man expects a whole eternity of
unalloyed bliss, from a Ruler who denies him a single month of it here?"
Dolores shook her golden head.
"I used to speculate a great deal about the next world," she said. "I
read all kinds of books on the subject, and I grew very much confused.
Finally, I rested back on the orthodox ideas, as quite as sensible as
any. I am sure the world and human nature is inclined to evil. I think
it is a misfortune to exist, and that we need a future life to repay us
for all we endure here. And I am sure it will require a Mediator to ever
reconcile the Creator to us or to give us eternal joy; but we can attain
it if we seek the way."
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