Mam'selle JoComstock, Harriet T. (Harriet Theresa)
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Mam'selle Jo
Comstock, Harriet T. (Harriet Theresa)
Saint Lawrence River Valley -- Fiction; Self-sacrifice -- Fiction; Single women -- Fiction
"Please, Jim," she pleaded, "sit down, I must tell you something I came
here to tell you, and I’m not very strong."
Norval sat down, still repeating in his clogged thoughts:
"Donelle has gone to Tom Gavot."
"I suppose," Katherine’s words ran along, at times sinking into Norval’s
confused brain, "I suppose I had to pass through a certain phase of
life, as many do. I had been so sheltered, so, well suppressed by my
training and experience. Then, when I believed I could write, I felt I
could not resist the thing that rose up in me. I almost hated you
because you seemed to stand between me and my—my rights. Then for a
time I was bewildered by my success, and when he, the man I told you
about, came into my life, I was driven astray! He seemed to see only
me, my life. He subjugated everything to my wishes. He was getting for
me what I did not know how to get for myself; recognition and—and a
great deal of money. Jim, I, who had never earned a penny! It was
wonderful! Then, I was taken ill and he wanted me to get my divorce and
marry him at once. I tried to, I really felt it was right, I wanted to,
but as soon as I saw him in the light of a husband, Jim, a dreadful
revulsion came. I kept seeing you, in him. I wonder if you can
understand? When he came to my room I saw you and when I saw him I was
afraid. It seemed so fearfully wrong.
"I was sent away into the hills where it was cold. I had had pneumonia
and the doctors thought I should have the mountain treatment. I would
not let him come, Jim. I went alone, and I was so lonely; so
miserable——" Katherine was weeping desolately and sopping the tears up
with her delicate handkerchief.
"Often I longed to die and be put under the snow, where it would be
warmer and I could forget. And then I began to think of you, Jim, as I
never had before. I saw you always patient with my moods, always kind.
I saw you so humble about your great talent, trying so hard to hide it
and live down to me! Yes, Jim, down to me. And then I hated myself and
the silly ideas I had had. I was afraid to die until I told you. I was
afraid to go to our—our baby, until you understood. And so I came back,
Jim, and I found that girl—here. Oh! Jim, I may have only a little
while to stay, please go with me for the rest of the way!"
Katherine stretched out her thin hands.
But Norval did not move. He stood looking at the woman before him with
compassionate eyes, but his soul saw Donelle. Alone in the midst of all
this trouble stood Donelle who had done no wrong, who had come into her
great love with trust and purity. Must she be the sacrifice? She, for
whom he hungered and thirsted with the best that was in him?
And yet, if he defended Donelle’s claim, could he hope to make
Katherine, make any one, believe that he was not seeking his own ends
first, Donelle’s afterward? The easiest thing to do may often be the
bravest, and after a moment Norval made his choice.
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