“‘I am ashamed to say that something in his phrase or gesture moved me
profoundly. We Russians are brought up in an atmosphere of folk-lore,
and its unfortunate effects can still be seen in the bright colours of
the children’s dolls and of the ikons. For an instant the idea of a
house running away from a man gave me pleasure, for the enlightenment
of man moves slowly.
“‘Have you no other house of your own?’ I asked.
“‘I have left it,’ he said very sadly. ‘It was not the house that grew
dull, but I that grew dull in it. My wife was better than all women,
and yet I could not feel it.’
“‘And so,’ I said with sympathy, ‘you walked straight out of the front
door, like a masculine Nora.’
“‘Nora?’ he inquired politely, apparently supposing it to be a Russian
word.
“‘I mean Nora in “The Doll’s House,”’ I replied.
“At this he looked very much astonished, and I knew he was an
Englishman; for Englishmen always think that Russians study nothing but
‘ukases.’
“‘The Doll’s House!’ he cried vehemently; ‘why, that is just where
Ibsen was so wrong! Why, the whole aim of a house is to be a doll’s
house. Don’t you remember, when you were a child, how those little
windows WERE windows, while the big windows weren’t. A child has a
doll’s house, and shrieks when a front door opens inwards. A banker has
a real house, yet how numerous are the bankers who fail to emit the
faintest shriek when their real front doors open inwards.’
“Something from the folk-lore of my infancy still kept me foolishly
silent; and before I could speak, the Englishman had leaned over and
was saying in a sort of loud whisper, ‘I have found out how to make a
big thing small. I have found out how to turn a house into a doll’s
house. Get a long way off it: God lets us turn all things into toys by
his great gift of distance. Once let me see my old brick house standing
up quite little against the horizon, and I shall want to go back to it
again. I shall see the funny little toy lamp-post painted green against
the gate, and all the dear little people like dolls looking out of the
window. For the windows really open in my doll’s house.’
“‘But why?’ I asked, ‘should you wish to return to that particular
doll’s house? Having taken, like Nora, the bold step against
convention, having made yourself in the conventional sense
disreputable, having dared to be free, why should you not take
advantage of your freedom? As the greatest modern writers have pointed
out, what you called your marriage was only your mood. You have a right
to leave it all behind, like the clippings of your hair or the parings
of your nails. Having once escaped, you have the world before you.
Though the words may seem strange to you, you are free in Russia.’
“He sat with his dreamy eyes on the dark circles of the plains, where
the only moving thing was the long and labouring trail of smoke out of
the railway engine, violet in tint, volcanic in outline, the one hot
and heavy cloud of that cold clear evening of pale green.
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