She was in a field of wheat now, and the tall shocks were like waves all
about her, thick and close, kissing her as she passed with their bended
stalks. Ahead of her it looked like an endless sea to cross before she
could reach another fence, and a bare field, and then another fence and
the woods. She knew not that in her wake she left a track as clear as if
she had set up signals all along the way. She felt that the kind wheat
would flow back like real waves and hide the way she had passed over. She
only sped on, to the woods. In all the wide world there seemed no refuge
but the woods. The woods were home to her. She loved the tall shadows, the
whispering music in the upper branches, the quiet places underneath, the
hushed silence like a city of refuge with cool wings whereunder to hide.
And to it, as her only friend, she was hastening. She went to the woods as
she would have flown to the minister’s wife at home, if she only had been
near, and buried her face in her lap and sobbed out her horror and shame.
Breathless she sped, without looking once behind her, now over the next
fence and still another. They were nothing to her. She forgot that she was
wearing Kate’s special sprigged muslin, and that it might tear on the
rough fences. She forgot that she was a matron and must not run wild
through strange fields. She forgot that some one might be watching her.
She forgot everything save that she must get away and hide her poor shamed
face.
At last she reached the shelter of the woods, and, with one wild furtive
look behind her to assure herself that she was not pursued, she flung
herself into the lap of mother earth, and buried her face in the soft moss
at the foot of a tree. There she sobbed out her horror and sorrow and
loneliness, sobbed until it seemed to her that her heart had gone out with
great shudders. Sobbed and sobbed and sobbed! For a time she could not
even think clearly. Her brain was confused with the magnitude of what had
come to her. She tried to go over the whole happening that afternoon and
see if she might have prevented anything. She blamed herself most
unmercifully for listening to the foolish music and, too, after her own
suspicions had been aroused, though how could she dream any man in his
senses would do a thing like that! Not even Captain Leavenworth would
stoop to that, she thought. Poor child! She knew so little of the world,
and her world had been kept so sweet and pure and free from contamination.
She turned cold at the thought of her father’s anger if he should hear
about this strange young man. She felt sure he would blame her for
allowing it. He had tried to teach his girls that they must exercise
judgment and discretion, and surely, surely, she must have failed in both
or this would not have happened. Oh, why had not the aunts come that
afternoon! Why had they not arrived before this man came! And yet, oh,
horror! if they had come after he was there! How disgusting he seemed to
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