Margaret Sanger: an autobiography.Sanger, Margaret
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Margaret Sanger: an autobiography.
Sanger, Margaret
Birth control -- United States -- Biography; Sanger, Margaret, 1879-1966
Looking askance at the police station which occupied the lower floor I
climbed up the stairs, and, with the shyness of an adolescent, full of
fears and uncertainties, lifted the huge brass knocker. The figure of
Ellis himself appeared in the door. He seemed a giant in stature, a
lovely, simple man in loose-fitting clothes, with powerful head and
wonderful smile. He was fifty-five then, but that head will never
change—the shock of white hair, the venerable beard, shaggy though
well-kept, the wide, expressive mouth and deep-set eyes, sad even in
spite of the humorous twinkle always latent.
I was conscious immediately that I was in the presence of a great man,
yet I was startled at first by his voice as he welcomed me in. It was
typically English, high and thin. I once talked to a prisoner at Sing
Sing who had been in the death house for three years and could speak
only in whispers thereafter. Ellis had been a hermit for twenty-five. He
had lived in the Bush in Australia, and later secluded himself in his
study. Nevertheless, the importance of what he had to say much more than
made up for the instrument which conveyed it.
He led me to the living room through which the cheerless twilight of a
winter afternoon in London barely penetrated, and seated me before a
little gas fire. Some rooms impress you as ghastly cold even when hot.
This one, though lacking central heating, had the warmth of many books.
He lit two candles on the mantel, which flickered softly over his
features, giving him the aspect of a seer.
We sat down and quiet fell. I tried a few aimless remarks but I
stuttered with embarrassment. Ellis was still. Small talk was not
possible with him; you had to utter only the deepest truths within you.
No other human being could be so silent and remain so poised and calm in
silence.
While Ellis was preparing tea in the kitchen he left me to look over his
library and the most recent news from America. He had laid out and
marked certain pertinent items which he thought might not have come to
my attention. This, I later found, was one of his most endearing
characteristics. He always entered into the life of the other person in
little details, never forgetting even the kind of bread or olives,
fruits or wines, you preferred. His detachment was not incompatible with
sympathy.
Soon appeared a large tray, laden with tea, cakes, and bread and butter,
and we sat down before the humming flame and talked and talked; and as
we talked we wove into our lives an intangible web of mutual interests.
I began to realize then that the men who are truly great are the easiest
to meet and understand. After those first few moments I was at peace,
and content as I had never been before. Entirely unaware of the
reverence he aroused, Ellis pasted no labels on himself, had no poses,
made no effort to impress. He was simply, quite un-self-consciously,
what he was.
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