Margret Howth: A Story of To-dayDavis, Rebecca Harding
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Margret Howth: A Story of To-day
Davis, Rebecca Harding
Fiction
He watched her more as a judge would a criminal, as she sat before him:
she struggled weakly under the power of his eye, not meeting it. He
waited relentless, seeing her face slowly whiten, her limbs shiver, her
bosom heave.
"Let me speak for you," he said at last. "I know who once filled your
heart to the exclusion of all others: it is no time for mock shame. I
know it was my hand that held the very secret of your being. Whatever
I may have been, you loved me, Margret. Will you say that now?"
"I loved you,--once."
Whether it were truth that nerved her, or self-delusion, she was strong
now to utter it all.
"You love me no longer, then?"
"I love you no longer."
She did not look at him; she was conscious only of the hot fire wearing
her eyes, and the vexing click of the clock. After a while he bent
over her silently,--a manly, tender presence.
"When love goes once," he said, "it never returns. Did you say it was
gone, Margret?"
One effort more, and Duty would be satisfied.
"It is gone."
In the slow darkness that came to her she covered her face, knowing and
hearing nothing. When she looked up, Holmes was standing by the
window, with his face toward the gray fields. It was a long time
before he turned and came to her.
"You have spoken honestly: it is an old fashion of yours. You believed
what you said. Let me also tell you what you call God's truth, for a
moment, Margret. It will not do you harm."--He spoke gravely,
solemnly.--"When you loved me long ago, selfish, erring as I was, you
fulfilled the law of your nature; when you put that love out of your
heart, you make your duty a tawdry sham, and your life a lie. Listen
to me. I am calm."
It was calmness that made her tremble as she had not done before, with
a strange suspicion of the truth flashing on her. That she, casing
herself in her pride, her conscious righteousness, hugging her
new-found philanthropy close, had sunk to a depth of niggardly
selfishness, of which this man knew nothing. Nobler than she; half
angry as she felt that, sitting at his feet, looking up. He knew it,
too; the grave judging voice told it; he had taken his rightful place.
Just, as only a man can be, in his judgment of himself and her: her
love that she had prided herself with, seemed weak and drifting,
brought into contact with this cool integrity of meaning. I think she
was glad to be humbled before him. Women have strange fancies,
sometimes.
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