Margret Howth: A Story of To-dayDavis, Rebecca Harding
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Margret Howth: A Story of To-day
Davis, Rebecca Harding
Fiction
Well, most men have some plan of life, into which all the strength and
the keen, fine feeling of their nature enter; but generally they try to
make it real in early youth, and, balked then, laugh ever afterwards at
their own folly. This poor old Knowles had begun to block out his
dream when he was a gaunt, gray-haired man of sixty. I have known men
so build their heart's blood, and brains into their work, that, when it
tumbled down, their lives went with it. His fell that dull day in
October; but if it hurt him, no man knew it. He sat there, looking at
the broad plateau, whistling softly to himself, a long time. He had
meant that a great many hearts should be made better and happier there;
he had dreamed----God knows what he had dreamed, of which this reality
was the foundation,--of how much world-freedom, or beauty, or kindly
life this was the heart or seed. It was all over now. All the
afternoon the muddy sky hung low over the hills and dull prairie, while
he sat there looking at the dingy gloom: just as you and I have done,
perhaps, some time, thwarted in some true hope,--sore and bitter
against God, because He did not see how much His universe needed our
pet reform.
He got up at last, and without a sigh went slowly away, leaving the
courage and self-reliance of his life behind him, buried with that one
beautiful, fair dream of life. He never came back again. People said
Knowles was quieter since his loss; but I think only God saw the depth
of the difference. When he was leaving the plateau, that day, he
looked back at it, as if to say good-bye,--not to the dingy fields and
river, but to the Something he had nursed so long in his rugged heart,
and given up now forever. As he looked, the warm, red sun came out,
lighting up with a heartsome warmth the whole gray day. Some blessing
power seemed to look at him from this grave yard of his hopes, from the
gloomy hills, the prairie, and the river, which he never was to see
again. His hope accomplished could not have looked at him with surer
content and fulfilment. He turned away, ungrateful and moody. Long
afterwards he remembered the calm and brightness which his hand had not
been raised to make, and understood the meaning of its promise.
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